SouzaGM

@asouzagm

I am the host of Melanin Mythos, Podcast Lead @apocunlimited.bsky.social, sensitivity consultant, editor, guest on podcasts and livestreams, and Game Designer. Haida. Secwepemc. Portuguese-Hawaiian. Demi. He/Him. Professional Contact: Atmsouza14@gmail.com

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SouzaGM@asouzagm· 24d

#poetry

$The first half of poem on a white background that reads as follows: Endings hurt So do the beginnings that follow How do I start again? How do I love again? I found the answer And the endings of before Entangle within wrapping my thoughts in this fear That grief is all I have left And each beginning is a call for another end Is the coming of another end So, I hide it from you And I pain myself in the hope you stay But what do I do with the hurt What do I do with the pain I can’t let it go Things lost do not deserve to be forgotten But their impact Can act Like hammers Slamming me flush with the floorboards No amount of soft carpet fixes the fractured wood below And the more grief$

Second half of a poem on a white background that reads as follows:

The more hammers, the more nails
The more cover ups
Is it I’m not enough
Or is as above
So below
My mind pinned to the floor as the tears well
I cover it with this softness
If I care for you or them
Then I can avoid looking at the dark alone
But when I walk into its embrace
Why is it like coming home
I will miss you
I miss you now
And for all the time I can miss you
I won’t ever stop
-A. Souza

SouzaGM@asouzagm· 25d

#poetry

A poem on a white background that reads as follows:

Bury me beneath the pressure of being the first
Bury me beneath the fear that I will be the last
Bury me beneath the longing for can’t be
Bury me amongst my ancestors who grieved the future that ended so long ago
Bury amongst the scattered words I beg the world to make coherent
Bury me amongst the voices lost amidst the seas of hate
Bury me with my heart as it is, broken and on the mend all at once
Bury with the feeling there is still more to be done
Bury with all my regrets
Bury with all my love
Bury as I am
Because I don’t wish to be satisfied when I go
Especially when there’s still so much to done
-A. Souza

SouzaGM@asouzagm· 29d

This is I think the first time revealing my sign stuff. Also, I have a stellium in Aries lol. The palette is a little everywhere though.

My Pantone Birth Chart Palette. Aries Sun, matched to the colour Signal Flame, #E8472E, Pantone 7417 C. Virgo Moon, matched to the colour Quiet Eucalyptus, #789B84, Pantone 2406 C. Cancer Rising, matched to the colour Sea Glass Mist, #A7C8C4, Pantone 6150 C. Aries Venus, matched to the colour Spiced Coral, #F07B63, Pantone 2434 C.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Jun 25

Deep in my study for blog stuff this came to me.

Text on a white background that reads:

I don’t want to you to forget who you are today
Lingering thoughts as your heart starts to race
The beauty of you in the now
The deepest relationship should not erase
But I see it coming
In the pen strokes
Of another romance
Where you the individual stood no chance
To souls as one
They just happened to choose the male again
I guess art imitates life
So this miserable story tracks
But where is the fantasy in that
How excited I am for you to find your dreams
Only for those to be a sacrifice you have to make
All for someone you locked eyes with at a coffee place
Those parts of you the reader adored
That romance can not replace
Love does come with sacrifice and inconvenience
But I fear the further I read the more I’m losing you
So then the question is
Is it love
Or love of the thought of who you could turn into

Text on a white background that read:

Death to the individual
It’s Mr and Mrs
Fuck his last name
And all his past pain
And how that is how he excuses the hurt he causes now
I lament the feeling reading you walk down the aisle
In a world where I know love exists
And is so deeply intricate
What in the fucking heteronormative is this
But really I love y’all
Keep writing your dreams
But can like just one time is it a possibility that the female protagonist isn’t forced to give up everything
With love,
To the authors of romance
-A. Souza

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Jun 24

#poetry

The following text on a white background.

Tell me your passions
All the versions of you that you can imagine
Your dreams deferred
Your hopes
Your crafts
Your hobbies
Your daily distractions
That help you regulate
The weight you carry
And know I won’t be burdened
You are a person
Worthy
Of someone stopping to take the time
My admiration
Doesn’t change when you tell me what’s on your mind
See they want you picturesque
Clean
I’d rather you felt seen
In whatever way you decide
I’d rather ease your mind
So you have a place where you feel like you don’t have to keep pretending all the time
It’s okay
I’m not here to fix it
Just appreciate your existence

The following text on a white background.

And stand by your side
On days it’s hard to
Clearing a path in all these eggshells you walk through
What’ve you been carrying lately?
How can help with that?
What parts is it overwhelming at?
Take your time
Reset
We don’t have to get into that
Just know I’m here
I got you
Present in your presence
To hold those parts you hide
Lend you an ear
Things I’d say to you
If my heart wasn’t chasing something even I don’t believe in
I recited every reason it doesn’t work
And I love you anyway for what it’s worth

-A. Souza

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Jun 6

Got the Mender!

Your Result:

You are the Mender

The Menders are traveling healers adept in the ways of hilot, those who can read the imbalances of the body and medicine to return it into health.
In the Rusunugan traditions, those who are blessed with a Snake-twin at birth are said to have a special aptitude in the mending arts, while those without are assigned a partner by the Guro. In the battlefields of the Sword Isles they employ their mastery and

their mastery and
understanding of the body and spirit to boldster their warband and lend them aid, allowing them to return to the fight.
Menders are Gubat Banwa's
Pure Healers, who use grappling attacks to transmute elemental afflictions into buffs while healing and bolstering their allies. They can also grapple their enemies and manipulate their internal achemy to confer afflictions upon them. Menders also bring beneficial consumables in battle, conferring even more heals and buffs, all in all making Menders neigh irreplacable in the battlefield

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Feb 22

My favorite cats, I love all four, but these two, they get me.

Taco, a tabby cat, standing on carpeted stairs.

Taco, a tabby cat, laying on a blue grey blanket in the sun.

Artemis, a black cat, laying on a carpet in the sun

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Feb 15

Drop an album that was important to you when you were 19 19 year old me moved across the country into a terrible situation and attempted to maintain a long distance relationship and loved Pierce the Veil and Coheed and Cambria. P.S. I’m still a fan of both, but nearly the same as then.

The cover of Pierce the Veil’s album Selfish Machines. It depicts two people facing each other holding a box made of light the person on the left in a white button down, black tie, and slacks and the person on the right in a white dress. They are standing in a dark forest with the title written above the box of light between them.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Dec 18

One of my favorite characters, Koyah is an anxious, studious, and determined little guy. Emotion: Love (I think he may have found it and didn’t know)

A periwinkle goblin with green and gold eyes wearing slacks, a short sleeved button down, a bow-tie, square glasses, and a beanie.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Dec 15

I found this in the wild. @youngles.bsky.social not the classic version, but something I thought you’d enjoy.

A can of coca cola with Star Wars characters on a wooden shelf.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Dec 8

We got Sage back!!

A orange and white cat snuggled in a blue blanket looking at the center of the camera.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Nov 17

Here are four of the pets. Cheating with the first two as they not my pets, but still love them.

Creature, a brown, black and white Great Dane/Husky mix with an icy blue right eye and a 50/50 icy blue and brown left eye. Creature is laying on the ground in a living room doing homework on a black laptop.

Mara, is an all white bull terrier mix sitting on the couch with a toy in her mouth after squeezing in to this spot next to her owner on the couch. Just her front legs and head are visible. The couch is purple with purple pillows. Her owner is wearing a black sweatshirt and covered with a grey blanket.

Artemis is a black cat laying belly up eyes closed on top of a brindlewood bay character sheet on top of a wooden table.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Nov 1

Went to the Funko Store with the kid. It was super cool! Here are some photos, sorry none of me lol just stuff in there.

A castle wall with a tower with a window with glowing green eyes. A nearly 10ft black and purple dragon with green eyes and various grey minions of Maleficent (also the dragon is Maleficent).

A nearly 10 foot version of Godzilla smashing through a train track with planes flying overhead and green, pink, and orange neon lights in the background as well as some buildings on the side.

A nearly 10 foot version of the joker and killer croc in cells with lighting side by side. Joker on the right and killer croc on the left.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Oct 19

I have three favorite vigilance cards and maybe two don’t count for this, but yeah here they are.

Faeburrow Elder
{1GW}
Creature- Treefolk Druid

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Aug 18

Here is four cats that bring me a bit of joy almost daily.

Alsan, a black, grey, and brown tabby cat with green eyes, is lying on a black chair on the wooden deck. Green grass and trees in the yard can be seen through the railing of the deck as well as spots of sun.

Sage, a white and orange cat is snuggled under a blueish grey cover with two paws up by her chin.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Jul 26

No cheating post your Lock Screen My little adventurer, Taco!

A grey tabby named Taco with a red harness in a orangish red cat crate out in a field by a lake.

SouzaGM@asouzagm· Jan 28

Anyway, I need any and all financial help that people can give because if I get evicted from this place I will no longer be able to get anywhere to live due to my credit being in the low 500s from the last eviction. Here is my PayPal or the email is veilcursed@gmail.com.