I woke up in the middle of my night and I can't get back to sleep. I'm debating on just getting up for the night but it's only 1:45 pm I could still sleep another 2 hours. But idk my mind is racing. My cat is doing fine though he's just peachy and relaxed

Watching the squid games with my cats

It's "Task Tuesday" and I broke down my whole night and structured it to make things flow constantly and to keep myself on track. Tonight is the only night I have off this week so I HAVE to get it all done tonight because I won't have another chance. But all I want is a nap but, responsibility

The dungeon party was fairie themed. It was also a protocol event which I did not know and I went alone so they assigned me as a house sub and put me with a Dom who came solo. He was nice, brand new to the scene. They wanted me to teach him some things about the lifestyle. It was a good time 😊

Another good week in obedience. I'm feeling really good about it 😊 I'm trying super hard to be good. Time is not always on my side though. I have two tasks left tonight that will make or break me if I forget them and I can't do them until late like close to rollover time. So 🤞

I got a new diamond painting in the mail last night and it took me an hour and five minutes to get six rows deep using four different colors. That's not bad at all there's like 88 rows so I laid 528 diamonds in a little over an hour so that's cool. I'm really excited to see how this will come out 🙂

The red mark in the middle by the cats arm happened because of some French toast casserole in LA over a month ago. Melted butter and brown sugar dripped on my arm. I held on to that casserole though 😂 I think it's gonna scar. It almost looks like a little heart ❤️

Finally!!! Geez!! That took forever to get back up to 100% The last two weeks in a row I missed one task and got like a 97% or something and it was infuriating. ONE TASK!!! And now I have to pay for it and it was not even worth it. But I did good this week 😊 I'm happy

Went to the Museum of Shadows tonight with T. It was nice getting out for a little bit and doing something fun. It is a museum filled with haunted artifacts. We did the "sit challenge" where we sat in a pitch black haunted room for ten mins. Nothing happened lol but it was a lot of fun.

Got rid of all my clothes that don't fit anymore. There are three trash bags full. Thankfully I work so much all I wear are scrubs mostly otherwise I wouldn't have much to go in 😂.

Goddamn it. I was all ready to purge my tea party but as I unpacked it all I fell in love with it all over again. Now I want to have a tea party. Oh well. I guess I will pack it back up and move on to another room.

I finally got T moved out of my dining room. I forgot how big this room was. I'm going to paint it next. You can't tell because it's so dark but the walls are a pink beige 🤮. We're going with white just to make it neutral to sell. This is our only grown up room. Lots of family heirloom type things.

Ok I need opinions. Do I paint the trim white in a different tone to offset it from the wall like eggshell instead of matte or do I leave the wood? I kind of like it as it is but I think the room will look bigger if it's white.

I got Emma blessed at the summer solstice dungeon party on Saturday. I pulled the gebo rune blindly which means "gift" or "generosity" and it was fitting since Emma was a reward for doing well in obedience and she was an expensive bear so it was very generous of her gifter to get her for me.

Ok.... Here we go again. Here's the new paint color and I started on the bottom. It looks better now that most of the pink on the walls is gone. Who paints a dining room pink anyway!?!? Lol Oh well, this one is going to work better with T's artwork.

The goddamn cat keeps eating my goddamn tape!!! I just want to paint this goddamn room!!! 😂😂😂

This is what I'm wearing to the summer solstice dungeon party tonight. Everyone I was supposed to meet up with bailed so I'm going to have to ....be extroverted 😬 Lol it will be good. Everyone here is really great

It's very serendipitous that I received this email last night after coming to some harsh realizations about how I treat the people who show me kindness by punishing them for the actions of those who have caused my past trauma. I do this without thinking and without knowing. This was the email.

Yeah, no the color did not darken up and it is ugly as sin. We are going out tonight to pick out a different color and we are going to go with a blue/grey. I didn't take into account T's artwork which will clash terribly with green. Oh well, I will try again.

Wow, that is green! I really hope this dries on darker because right now my bonsai green is looking like seafoam eek! I may have to repaint. I'm not super stoked about this. I'll have to ask M tomorrow when she comes over. It is an improvement over the pink walls though. LOL

The office is prepped to paint. I took out all the nails, wiped down the walls, patched holes, taped, and laid down my tarps. I've got mise en place just like I learned in school and I will be ready to rock on Tuesday night.

All right. Projects to update the house to sell are underway. We have plenty of time. Well, my plan is to have the house ready to sell in three years then I want to be out of here. I have a lot to do. Mostly painting, the house itself is in great shape, It's all aesthetic. Wish me luck.

Lol my bruise on my thigh looks like a heart. Must mean I loved it 😂

There's nothing like preventative punishments to set a girl back on track. Thank you Ma'am for helping me set good habits 😊

Welp, I'm headed off to a short spankless nights sleep. You can still see faint cane marks 🥰

Shirt of the week.

If I can figure out how to do it I want to get these business cards made for DomCon lol. Just for funsies

Hair is done!

I gave her full artistic freedom. So we are going blonde on the top and darker on the sides. 😳😬 Wish me luck

I just had a really good weigh in at 131.2 Lbs. My mother in law remarked that I look thinner than I was when T and I got married. I was 135 then. It's amazing what a difference a few pounds makes My goal by the end of this week was supposed to be 128 by Sunday. I won't make it but I'm close.