Perhaps one day I will take it and back to real life. but until then, I will still rest here, moving forward with my own steps.

This was not easy; the pain of more than 10 years has been lingering in my heart. I don't know where to go or what to do.

I don't need your jerk's reminders. When I realized my actions, I decided to change and didn't want to cause you any trouble. But instead, you've been the ones doing despicable things behind my back. PLEASE Stop thinking you're some superior race.

I know I might be overreacting again, but I have absolutely no recollection of doing anything wrong to him, simply because of their "community decision." I can't stop thinking because, in my eyes, it's utterly disgusting hypocrisy. Ironically, I once considered him a friend.

Perhaps I didn't get a photo with Coda at Furality..... Although I envy everyone else, I still have a photo that's more memorable than any reshoot. 🧡: @thatdogcoda.bsky.social

I still bought the game, perhaps as a new experience, even though playing it alone can easily become boring.😂

The third Q2 was tested. Upon disassembly and inspection, numerous rusted and faulty components were found on the controller. After a general inspection and replacement of parts, it is now functioning perfectly.❤️

I was abandoned three years ago, that has always been an undeniable fact. 私は3年前に捨てられた。 それは紛れもない事実だ。 三年前我就已經被拋棄了. 一直都是無可否認的事實.

sleepy cuddle with My favorite brother Alto💛 @Orion_SpaceDog (Alto Fluff)

Monday syndrome...? No...it's just a relapse of simple anxiety. I feel numb to my surroundings. If only I could be more normal.

I always miss you, no matter what.... Just like I told you when we broke up, I've always been here, always..... because I only wish you happiness....

I know I'm not a good person, nor am I good at socializing. Whenever I see people and things from the past, some wounds always ache. Perhaps everyone is already tired of my emotions. Right now, I just want to take more tranquilizers to hide and tell myself not to cause trouble.

かっけぇ！！！！！！！！！！🤩

Try a new beginning🥰 New Fursuit, new weaponry, new accessories. it's like a new life.

Color test It looks pretty good. Hopefully, can see the finished product soon.🥰

I think it would be better if I didn't participate in any conventions this time. Perhaps this wouldn't cause any trouble for many people. I don't know, I just feel very scared and uneasy. But who cares...?

In one of the few worlds where I can feel at peace and rest..... Is he trying to FKing stir up trouble again? Whether it was being deleted and blocked by my friends last year Even banned from Group, or the Fursuit dispute 10 years ago, he was always one of them.

Unfortunately, I didn't have better photo materials to create it, but it still seems to retain the visual concept of the original. I'm a little buddy from @thatdogcoda.bsky.social ❤️

Trying to calm or stop myself from my chaotic thoughts Beneath my seemingly lively exterior lies a multitude of anxieties and pain. I long for someone to hold me tightly, to make me feel safe and secure. Stress responses often cause me to temporarily shut down. my heart: Help..

HEHE I LOVE IT🤪

Even though my birthday has passed, you're still willing to sing "Happy Birthday" to me. I am really really really really happy. thank you My favorite @thatdogcoda.bsky.social .❤

Tomorrow is coming soon.... hope things won't get any worse.

Why would I need to do that? to me, rationalizing the problem by saying "I'm being overly sensitive" is absurd. Since you're going to cater to his perspective, treating me as someone publicly defaming others and then blocking me, perhaps like you think, "I am the problem itself."

oh yesssssssss nice TREEEEEEEEE💚 *Scratching*

Liking someone doesn't mean being in love. For me, when I like someone, it's just a want to be close, simply to cuddle. But sometimes I seem to be misunderstood, and gradually alienated or replaced by others? Make me feel like I'm just a substitute. I am very clear everything.

we need a sentry right here

Finally, Monday arrived. Because of the weekend, I couldn't get the medication to adjust my serotonin levels. I'm starting to feel a bit neurotic. Especially at certain trigger points. But thank my friends gave me cuddle at this time.💚 Although I need a lot of time to rest.

*PTSD symptoms out of control* I'm just a meaningless substitute. I'm not important like those scumbags can erase and trample on anything they want. And pretend to be innocent.

Each stress response forces me to take more alprazolam because I have lost so much and have been labeled a false victim, suffering immense oppression. Living a life where malice is everywhere is not easy. Especially when the people you close gradually become indifferent...

I can't seem to stop this pointless internal friction. I always long to return to the past, but the reality is I have to be constantly vigilant because I never know which person hurt me might reappear and trigger my stress response. You can never be sure they let things escalate.