Ok!! WFH maybe isn’t that bad. Spent the day in #rubber and when things get boring i start huffing #Poppers #GayRubber #GayPig #RubberPig #RubberKink #TooFatToBeADroneATM 😂

I did find something that fit, and as I’m WFH today and have AC, why not get rubbered up! The boots are new (to me) but don’t fit properly and I fear I may not get them off 😂

Is not fitting into any of my rubber going to be the thing to snap me out of whatever this is ??! 🤣 🤣 🙈🤣😭

I think I’ve followed too many hot hairy men and it’s diluted my feed. Where have all the leather men, Dads, cigars and BDSM gone :( Reposting this because I haven’t been tortured and beaten in a while, and how fucking hot is this!

I’m hopeful for some positive changes because I look how I feel 💀 To end, saw a corgi with the biggest butt wiggle ever, and here’s me with some new gay AF glasses.

I have to do orientation today for a new counsellor. And I can’t focus. Instead I’m here dreaming about being suffocated and forced cigar smoke until I’m a mess! My cage is straining and my emails remain unread. #CigarPig (In Training) Old video of #HumanAshtray leaving no waste.

Yesterday work was worth it because i knew i was getting flogged at the local bar for a fundraiser. Today:

I’ve said it before, but I understand that my body is often not my own and if I want people who use my body for pleasure to continue to do so I have to take care of it! I’m not, and it upsets me that I show that level of disrespect to myself and them. So here’s me. Big hairy me!

Sometimes I wonder, how did I end up here! I have just advertised this on my works Slack group! (Sex Therapy Clinic, if you’re new). I will be one of the lucky bottoms taking a #flogging. This is raising money for the PACE Society Vancouver www.pace-society.org If you can please donate. #BDSM

I keep watching this. I can’t believe I can take a huge hairy curled up fist in my hole. A little pink as I am out of practice but my hole took a good amount of abuse this night. This guy knows how to get me stretched open and full in no time! #FFun #Fisting #ManCunt @xlube.com #GayFisting

Another head shot because I can’t fit into any gear atm. I feel like my brain is finally levelling back out which is great. Now I ‘only’ need to stop spending obscene amounts of money on take out, start cooking, and go to the gym….. easy 😭

Will a visit to Costco to buy a air conditioner make me feel better? Maybe.. until I look at my credit card statement again. Side note: I haven’t shaved or got a hair cut in forever, but the stache is staching! And the beard is hiding my growing number of chins!

8hrs later and I’m reminded I didn’t ask for oat milk.

Real talk here! Douching is hardcore witchcraft! Me: #FFun #Fisting

The universe knows I need help, and is sending little fluffy hugs throughout the day! Corgis are magically appearing on my walks, and ALL over my social media. Double Corgis!! A few days ago. I’m currently trying to figure out their walk schedule like a creepy stalker.

So hairy! So tired! The moustache is out of control, and getting very Lorax’y! And the hair is just ugly! I can’t make that funny or sexy… Well... it’s something to grab hold of, but that’s all I’ve got! #GayBear #HairyBear #HairyGay #GayBeards

It’s a 90’s Euro Dance kinda morning. Headphones on, sat my desk, volume limit removed, enjoying the sunshine through the window. Perfection. Pictures…. because your perverts! 😈❤️

Forgot I didn’t refill my prescription, missed a day. Did nothing! Moved bed to couch, couch to bed, missed another. Did nothing! Filled it this morning. Now I’m woozy, irritated, and being emotionally outpaced by a houseplant. ‘Serotonin has left the chat.’

Did anyone else’s parents threaten, “If I catch you smoking, I’ll make you smoke the whole pack”? Anyway, my brain wandered today and made that weirdly kinky. 😂 So… what’s the cigar equivalent, and who’s helping me revisit childhood warnings irresponsibly? #CigarPig #CigarTraining #GayCigar

Thought I’d seek help for this ‘Friday’ thing 😂 “So, I’m having these really strong feelings towards Fridays. And I need to talk about it”

I LOVE man smells! Pits, a sweaty crotch, a hairy ass. Then there’s cigars, leather, rubber, poppers, cum, spit, piss. As I’ve grown into my piggy tendencies I’ve found smell to be huge thing for me. It sets the mood, it makes me horny, it puts me in my place! #ManSmells #ManPits #HairyPits #Hairy

The beard is really picking up the pace with the grey hairs recently and I’m not mad, but the 2 scrawny grey hairs on my chest look sad and lonely. Is this like that awkward stage of growing out your hair style!

Me and my best friend have a thing for thunderstorms… unhealthy levels of excitement at the mere mention of a storm! But we never get them! I miss the summer storms from home that rolled on for hours!! Today’s text exchange as a few rumbles and flashes roll about the sky: 💥

I used Ozempic about 2 years ago and had nothing like this. It’s the only big thing I can think of that’s changed. Lots of positive change that has felt hidden/lost because of these lethargic feelings. I want to enjoy these new found feelings and experiences!! So I think it’s a fail. Time to stop.

I think this weird lethargic feeling is Ozempic? Usually with some soul searching I can figure out a trigger for my brain having a ‘wobble’, but I couldn’t for recently and that’s was weird. I think It’s caused the long ‘naps’ & bad sleep, which leads to me just feeling blahhh. Not fun, not sexy.

Checks clock..

I do not want to work today!! Well.. to be specific, I don’t want to work at my job today. Working on my ass, working on being a good boy, working on being a good #gimp, working on my pain tolerance, working on long term #bondage limits, working on becoming a #cigarpig You get the idea!

Although I spiralled pretty quickly, I am really proud that I took action so quickly. I stated my concerns clearly and professionally and I was met with understanding, praise, apologies, and clarification. I would have let this eat me up not so long ago. Growth isn’t just about cigars & beatings?!?