ren (semi-hiatus)

@plumtoad

30+ // 🔞+nsfw // friend of nicholas // danmei+anime+manga 📍wolfwood's mermaid belly button Ao3: threadfics+posts: renworld feed passing notes in class:

298 Following464 Followers5,929 Posts

YouTube Bluesky

amateur

Is this your profile?Claim it and plumtoad.dirty.social is yours.Claim profile

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 31

tools pic--i carved the stamps out of pink erasers and really do love them so much. not pictured was an incredibly useful tool: a phone book that i used to hold the zines in place to pierce the pamphlet holes; clothespins to hold the pages in place while piercing; my old thrifted paper punches

my hand holding my two stamps, dont and kuroneko head, that i carved from a pink eraser. the lil kuro has spooky empty eyes so that i can draw in her eyes looking around. im really proud of them!!!

pic of some of my tools. westcott paper trimmer, offbrand xacto knife, spool of white linen thread, a small paper piercer, a small bonefolder, the bottom of a beeswax candle, a metal ruler. all of it sits on a black self-healing cutting mat

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 31

and the finale (for now until i inevitably make more), beloved babbie star wars au "no wonder i want to wrap you up and take you home" ficzine. 4.25"x5.5", 3-hole, ~15 pages, a lot of fun with the cover

ficzine for my star wars au fic "no wonder i want to wrap you up and take you home." the cover is a vibrant bluish-purple decorated with black frog stamps hopping around that have playful lines radiating out from around them, similar to splashes of water/rays of energy. the cover has a cutout to the title page ("no wonder i want to wrap you up and take you home" by ren, with the same top and bottom flanking border designs--spiral-galaxy-esque center with lines and dots on the side--as other zines). a lavender paper star charm is attached to the spine's center knot on the left. my index finger is on the bottom right pinning the cover down

inside cover and title page of the ficzine. the inner cover is bright magenta-pink with a black frog stamp with radiating lines, on the bottom center-ish. the title page on the right has the same text and design displayed in the cutout of the first pic, with paper cutouts framing the bottom right corner with a rope/braid design. i again forgot to take a pic of the center but you can see its a 3-hole pamphlet stitch. my index finger is in the middle holding it open

inner back cover and end page of the ficzine. the left side end page is white with a small purple plum with a green leaf drawn in the bottom center. the back inner cover has a kuro stamp with her eyes looking down and to the left at the plum. my index finger holds it open in the middle

view of the zine that shows the inner front and inner back cover together because i thought it was cute how back inner cover kuro is also looking at the front inner cover frog stamp. the pages of the zine are gathered and held together by my fingers

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 31

for my trigun fic firstborn, "this side of paradise" ficzine. 4.25"x5.5", 3-hole, ~8 pages, cover cutout and stamps that i made with my own determined fingers. i had found vibrant two-sided color cardstock at the office supply store and was obsessed, i loved using it

cover for my ficzine "this side of paradise." the cover is bright vash-red decorated with donut and kuroneko stamps (that i MADE. MYSELF!!). the kuro faces having their eyes looking in various directions. the cover has a cutout to the title page ("this side of paradise" by ren, with the same top and bottom flanking border designs--spiral galaxy-esque center with lines and dots on the side--as the other zines). playful threads from the spine's center knot splay out on the left

inside cover and title page. the inner cover is bubblegum pink with a kuroneko stamp in the lower left, with her eyes looking up and to the right. the title page on the right has the same text and design displayed in the cutout of the first picture. i forgot to take a pic of the centerfold but you can sort of see that this is a 3-hole pamphlet stitch

back inner cover of the zine. on the left is a blank endpage with a pink frog stamp in the bottom center. on the right is a donut stamp in the upper center, aligned with where the kuro stamp from the front inner cover was looking

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 31

"may you sleep on the breast of your delicate friend" aka brafic zine. 4.25"x5.5", i still had to fold a spine, 5-hole, ~45 pages, pockets! i ended up loving this quarter-page size and also wrangling a shorter zine after Learning through thicc farmhusbands. also loved the cover paper so much

front cover of my ficzine "may you sleep on the breast of your delicate friend" aka brafic. the pattern is a dense repeated spread of a very cute small flower with light green bud on white stem+leaves, with double yellow stars in between each flower, all against a dark green background. a yellow star charm is attached to the spine at the center, on the left

inside of the brafic zine. the inside cover is creamy off-white with a folded sharply angled pocket with the same pattern as the front cover (but upside down since folded). on the right, the first page has the fic title ("may you sleep on the breast of your delicate friend" by ren) flanked on top and bottom by two short border designs that have a fun spiral-galaxy-esque design at center and horizontal lines with a few dots on either side. paper cutouts of ribbons are on the top, right side, and bottom of the page. my finger holds it open

centerfold of brafic zine with my hand holding it open. text is vash confessing to huffing wolfwood's bra but again lets look at the really sexy part which is my 5-hole pamphlet stitch with my linen thread that i beeswaxed with the nub of a candle.

spine of the brafic zine with my hand holding it upright. the spine is smaller than the farmhusbands zine and was tricky to do but im proud of it. yellow paper star charm is attached to the center knot

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 31

collected farmhusbands post-canon au zine. i thought i'd just do a paper-and-staple but pretty soon i realized ah shit i want to make a book. 4"x6", i had to fold a spine, 5-hole pamphlet stitch, ~80 pages, it has pockets. i made the ascii farmhouse and its one of my favorite parts

front cover of my zine for my farmhusbands fic against a dark wood grain background. the cover has a pattern lf blue and red plants--grasses and reeds other similar such plants--against off-white. a small paper heart charm is attached to the center spine on the left side.

inside front cover and page of my farmhusbands zine. my index finger holds the zine open. on the left, the inner cover is a pattern of blocky abstract white shapes referencing the grasses/leaves from the front, against a red background. the inner cover has been folded so that it has a steep triangular pocket that i later tucked notes into. its not pictured but there is also a pocket for the back inner cover.
the first page, on the right, has an ascii two story house with a starry sky in the upper center of the page and on the bottom of the page there is a paper cutout design of a heart flanked by stem and leaf and smaller heart

centerfold of my farmhusbands zine, with my hand holding it open. there's text from the installment "in your pine wood linger" of vashwood having morning sex. but please direct your attention to the really sexy part which is my 5-hole pamphlet stitch, stitched using linen thread that i waxed with the stub of a beeswax candle.

spine of my farmhusbands zine, my hand holding it upright. the spine has a pattern of blue and white circles that mark the centerline of larger red feathers that run down thr spine. the paper heart charm is attached to the center knot.

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 20

its too much

doodle of a simple face in purple. eyes are closed. eyebags are prominent. smile is weakly trying to find acceptance but is expressing deep exhaustion at the state of things

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 18

a single capsule can be sent to rock planet and it's filled with letters from his old students asking "mr grace why does rocky call you babygirl?"

ren: the other rocks fretting about anxiously over all of ryan gosling's holes, is he okay?? does he need to be filled?? plugged up???
dont worry rocky has that covered

ren: okay so i cant stop thinking about when ryan cries in front of rocky
and like
the minerals and salt and stuff in tears
rocks could like that......
thats rock components..............
rocky crying kink for his soft wet alien's liquid rock tears

mack: oh my goddd the little piece of ryan he can actually touch
ren: WHAT IF HE HASNT HAD SALT BEFORE
mack: CAN TASTE
ren: YES THE MOISTURE ERODES HIM A FRACTION. MAYBE HE LIKES HOW IT FEELS.
ren: AAAHHHH
mack: he made his mark on ryan, why shouldn’t ryan make a mark on him?
ren: ryan: crying with laughter at rock love island
rocky: can yuo put that out onme

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 16

i do always love how strange and diabolical it looks to rinse it in the backyard

some raw fleece being rinsed in a small bucket. the water is murky and the fleece partly submerged; it hangs over the edge of the bucket where it sits on the grass in a pile to the left

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 16

FRESH FLEECE SATURDAY

pic of raw sheep fleece against a background of grass

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 15

but you can tell theyre side by side so neatly aaahhhhh his stomach is so beautiful, i absolutely love how he looks both tense with pleasure and utterly melty from it at the same time 💞❤️‍🔥💗💝 THANK YOU FOR SHARING HIM I FEEL LIKE A CAT THAT SNATCHED AN ENTIRE FISH FILET FROM THE TABLE AND SCAMPERED OFF

"you are safe now my sweet child" meme with the person labeled "flynn p1nkpaper" feeding "sweaty blushy bouncing on it wolfwood" to creature labeled "me" saying "i owe you my life"

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 14

mermay angelina

photo of a shrimp motorcycle which is like if an enormous shrimp had motorcycle wheels

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 10

posted a vashwood farmhusband installment that was backdated so it wasnt showing up 🫠 but i fixed it! wrote this last fall, happy to release it into the wilds "gather me back" 🌱 wolfwood vs squash 📝 penpals with lina 💝 vash gets in his doting enrichment archiveofourown.org/works/84402086

ao3 fic posting screencap for my fic "gather me back" with various tags and work summary:

“Birds getting at your seedlings again?” Vash asks as casually as he can. He hands Wolfwood a bowl to dry.

“Nah, they’re bein’ good about it since I mulched,” Wolfwood says. He dries the bowl a little slow, sluggish; he doesn’t follow his answer with anything else.

---

wolfwood's turn to need some caretaking

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 7

i saw the edo hammerheads again, this too is mermay vashwood

an illustrated pair of hammerhead sharks from the Oki Kuni Sanbutsu Ezu Chūsho (隠岐国産物絵図注書), mid-Edo period. the shark on the left is belly-up with his sharp-toothed mouth looking like its smiling and its claspers VERY apparent lol; one of its fins overlaps the other shark's. the shark on the right is belly-down, tail overlapping the other shark's tail. they both have cute googly eyes and they look like they're on a date

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 6

1. i love that the very first thing he says is "wow we could plummet to our deaths and drown in sand! and even better, its too damn cloudy!" i love him so much 2. immediately followed by "where are we going?" he didn't even ask before getting on and complaining oh my god i love him

pic of trimax panel of the gondola to ship three with wolfwood's morbid hilarious complaints: "if the wire broke, we'd drown in sand and that'd be the end. to top if off...ya can't see nothin'."

trimax panel following the previous of wolfwood looking out the window of the gondola saying "so, where in the world is this thing takin' us?"
he is a VERY good shape here

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 6

disheveled bear emerging from hibernation den

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· May 4

i 🔪 produce stickers!! i ❤️ my compost sifter!!!

top down view of my compost sifter, which is small-hole mesh in a wood frame with a pile of compost in the middle. it's on top of a white bucket. an orange bucket with unsifted compost is in the background on the right and my green garden clog clad foot on the left

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 28

A PERFECT PUFF

pic of a perfect round white dandelion puff amongst the clover

same dandelion puff as first pic put looking birds eye view down at it

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 27

tidied up today, anne-of-green-gables-wolfwood-voice puff(y paint) sleeves

pic of some of my materials from making the @pawschamp shirt in the post, against a black cutting mat background. a scrap of navy blue tshirt with red puffy paint letters that say "WW THIN THICK PRACTICE PUFF SLEEVES"; the paper stencil i cut out for the design (FULL OF ♥️ TROUBLE) and a little pile of the letters; and the red fabric with the heart design cut out of it

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 25

i look at this art all the time and have been desperately wanting wolfwood's shirt as a comfort shirt for months, so i finally made it!! ty grease for getting double vaxed and prompting paws, and thank you paws for drawing and sharing it. art that is a soft place for me to rest 🙏♥️

black cotton tshirt on a black hanger against a wooden door. the shirt is made from @pawschamp illustration of soggy sick wolfwood being fed chicken soup by his husband vash. on the left-side chest of the shirt is a red applique heart, with text in puffy paint above and below that reads "FULL OF TROUBLE"

close up of the applique heart and text (FULL OF TROUBLE) from the same shirt as the first picture--design from @pawschamp illustration

angled closed up of the same shirt, to show the dimensionality of the puffy paint text "FULL OF TROUBLE" from @pawschamp illustration. the letters are thick and raised and pleasantly gloopy

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 24

baby ren's first watch

pic of my hand with a casio watch face in the middle of my palm and a background of some succuclents. the watch face is black with teal green accents and a large teal green button on the bottom. text in white and dark magenta on the watch face reads "CASIO water resist 50M" with side buttons labeled "split/reset; mode; start/stop" the display reads "FR 24 16:02 00" with some small scratches scattered over the face

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 23

i finished uuggghhhhh im so pleased 😒 me writing needle turn applique a love letter that says get out of my school

pingu frowning at the valentine they made

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 21

made these simple reminders instead of getting up to get water while my remote workspace was down

renmade image of 98 wolfwood screencap of him drinking water from a canteen a little messily. his eyes are closed in happy curves and water dribbles from the corner of his mouth. text reads "DRINK WATER"

renmade image of 98 vash and wolfwood fighting over one empty canteen. they are on their hands and knees in the flatbed of a truck, each with a hand holding the upside down canteen, eyes big and desperate with their tongues out and nearly touching. text reads "REHYDRATE"

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 21

you made it through monday!

close-up of the famous "landscape with the fall of icarus" of the titular icarus splashing into the water, legs flailing, in the corner of the painting. he's real small; good bird in the bottom of the close-up too. hang in there icarus!

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 19

when i went out the other day to reprimand the squirrel that was sitting in one of my pots eating a shell, i saw a crazy circle rainbow!! fox wedding weather which we havent had in a while too 🙏

pic of my left hand holding up one half of a large freshwater clam shell to block out the blinding sun so that a CIRCLE RAINBOW can be more clearly seen around the sun! the sky has a layer of wispy clouds, and the silhouette of a house's roof is looming on the right

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 17

if you wear a not-smartwatch, can i see it just for fun? this is my little jelly blue casio la20wh 💙

pic of my wrist with my blue casio watch the face of the watch is gently metallic and the band is semi-transparent blue. the watch display reads "FR 17 15:37 46" and the watch face has text "ILLUMINATOR CASIO WR WATER RESIST" on it. you can see the imprint of the band further down my wrist showing where it usually sits.

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 16

literally five minutes after meeting and they are getting married. i understand why it's called romance of the three kingdoms. tears in my eyes during peach blossom oath, i really needed this level of devotion tonight 🙏

rot3k ep 1 screencap of zhang fei proclaiming "so long as we three share heart and mind, clay can be changed to gold."

rot3k ep 1 screencap of guan yu ardently saying "my flesh is your flesh"

rot3k ep 1 screencap of liu bei, zhang fei, and guan yu's hands all stacked on top of each other in a firm, brotherly grip. they are about to go get married in a peach grove

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 16

liu bei collecting his boys 🥹

screencap from rot3k ep 1 of guan yu smiling as liu bei and zhang fei giddily clasp wrists; all three are about to skip off to have wine together after their wrassleboy meetcute

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 15

(another ww weds reference point bsky.app/profile/wolf...) crazy watching a guy have integrated updated beliefs and feelings in real time without him even being aware of it in the moment but u know hes going to eat a lot of curry and noodles while processing later ♥️

Wolfwood, however, has had both opportunity and desire to know vash in battle and rest, to know vash’s resolve and some of his motivation—it’s frequently unwilling desire, like he can’t help but be changed by vash even as it upends his worldview and makes painfully vulnerable his bloodied spark of soft care. Throughout the dragon’s nest standoff, wolfwood, despite his own fear and panic, despite witnessing vash’s horrifying angel arm, continues to think of vash *as* vash, tongari, spikey.
Wolfwood might not believe he himself is worth saving but, like vash, he believes others are (though they may disagree where/when/how to draw that line). Vash has shown wolfwood hope—desperate and messy and single-minded as it is—and the fundamental part of wolfwood that craves it has started to believe and respond. Wolfwood has let himself know vash, and start to be changed by him. Even though he will continue to struggle with all that’s at risk and the implications of vash’s power, it’s clear in this standoff that vash is still vash to him. (2/3)

All of this held next to the later panel of his uncomfortable surprise at how easy it is to trust and fight back-to-back with vash leads to the follow-up when he points his gun at vash on the roof and is unable to fire feeling like a test of himself he already knows the answer to. Vash is powerful beyond his comprehension, yes, that power is terrifying, yes, but above all vash is becoming someone wolfwood believes in. I find it really interesting that how he feels about vash doesn’t ultimately shift negatively after dragon’s nest; he’s afraid of what can be unleashed by vash’s power, but it’s more like his own responsibility and what he is or isn’t capable of become more harrowing to weigh and consider/reconsider in the aftermath, rather than seeing vash as an actual monster. (3/3)

panel from trimax omnibus vol. 2 ch. 32 of wolfwood looking very intense and fierce and delightfully a little walleyed during the dragon's nest stand-off. things have really escalated! he's thinking "that's it!! he's pre-occupied with trying to keep spikey under wraps!!" idk i just think it's nice he sees vash in the midst of a crazy body horror transformation is like "yep, still spikey! legato is the real freak"

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 15

rip midvalley, there's only room for one exhausted beat up man in a suit doing his best 😔 this is all mostly abt the ww weds panel, with some extra panels of the larger scene for context

Anyway, I had a few more thoughts on this panel/scene and the compare+contrast btwn wolfwood and midvalley. Midvalley’s feelings about the current situation, and the overall dilemma of humanity’s fate in the hands of the twins, is made clear, and in some ways wolfwood can relate. They both live steeped in fear and relative powerlessness, trapped in cycles of violence and violated autonomy and many false choices (sounds familiar…..). Midvalley refers to vash as “it” and doesn’t see much difference between vash and knives: two “things” that are above him that can crush the world. How could he ever relate to such beings, much less think one of them could relate to him.
His hopelessness and drive to escape push him to action several times and leave him further cornered each time. Ultimately he’s left not believing there’s any other outcome besides mutual annihilation between vash and knives. Midvalley has no opportunity to know vash as a person the way wolfwood does, and no chance or desire to know who vash is within the abused, guilt-laden context of vash’s own experience of that crushing power. From midvalley’s experience, he thinks he’s already got it all figured out: “it boils back down to them destroying one another.” He’s got like, cornered depression quasi-nihilism that is hyperfocused on ‘getting himself out’ and it’s hard to blame him which is good. It shouldn’t be easy to brush his experience aside. This shit sucks. (1/3)

ren (semi-hiatus)@plumtoad· Apr 15

director's cut!