One of my new friends. Its name is Relent and comes bearing kindness on hard days. It brings me gifts (e.g. a crown), and stands outside my bedroom door to protect. #schizophrenia #drawing #hallucination #art

Happy Saturday. My butt looks good in these. 😤

My dress came in. Boy in a dress! I feel so fancy! 🖤

I have a habit of opening links in new tabs, but I never noticed this until now lol. Yeah, okay AI do my homework for me because you're ~so~ reliable. Bro, AI being everywhere is getting to me. I just want to be able to think for myself. I feel forced into this when people tell me it's unavoidable.

Doodled some last night. Finally on school break for a couple of weeks. #art #drawing #doodles

I forgot to add this, this was right before he looked right at me and had me reach out to him. I had to put my phone down for that because I was already crying at this point. I don't know how, but when I thanked him for that after the show he said he could tell I felt like I needed it. 🖤

I may have cried tonight. April is the month my dad died and he was the first one I lost and what led up to me being alone as a child. So I haven't been okay. Davey took his time after the show to see me again. He said I'm an amazing artist because I'm kind and that everything was going to be okay.

Balance and self-infliction. The second one came out a bit blurry, but out of everything in my contact sheet I just wanted to print this one out the most because it spoke to me out of all the other concepts. I just needed it done.

Doing another dark room project. Aaaahhh I hate time crunches. And everybody needed me everywhere in theater today too which is just awful timing. 😭

Pot head.

He's so cuuuute! I got him at Adam and Eve. 🖤

Sepia toned versus no sepia. I'm glad I went with that instead of selenium honestly. It feels better.

We did a once more with feeling. It was a pretty evening out there. 🖤

Good use of free will haha.

The storm is behind us.

Injured sternum (theatrical makeup).

Wtf father time. It's been 5 years since I found this photo of him on my mom's SD, unpacking stuff after I got my own place. He wasn't present much but I wonder if that would have been different if they didn't have me when they were teens. He would have been 43 this year. Still kinda miss him.

*hides in the corner, behind the sound systems* A whole corner! Aaaaaa! 😭

The awesome thing about not caring what I wear around college at this point is when I need to do laundry, I'll just wear the booty shorts that say "Slut" on the back in all caps and I'll still get compliments. 😂

Aaahhh, I'm glad one of my pieces won an art competition! This one was my favorites that I did! 🖤

I hid under a desk and listened to some goth music today before rehearsal~ 🖤

I'm coping with my anxiety a lot better. I've made it my ritual to hide in the theater somewhere before rehearsals and just listen to something soothing to me. I listened to a mix of alt music, @d3podcastshow.bsky.social and classical while hiding under a table today. It felt so medatative~

Most valid crash out right here. Ugh, I'm gonna cry I'm so hung over. 😭

This thing is sick as hell omfg. Stoned as fuck hyper fixated on this epic fidget spinner of a die.

My friend has chicks omg! 🖤

New shirt, who dis?

Okay, I may have decided to give in and go out. I got a ton of Kandi out of it. 🖤

Help, they're trying to convince me to have fun today. 😭

Got reminded of this photo of 10 years ago right before I grabbed the rest of my stuff from the foster program I was in. I dress exactly the same as I do today still. My style has not changed an inch. Wtf. 😭