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char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

bloody nose blues (2025) — E | 2.7k | #woodknives — It’s a provocation. Nai shouldn’t lower himself to this level. But his blood is seething in his veins, and something about Wolfwood’s smug fucking face has Nai’s knuckles itching. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/66307024

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bloody nose blues
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Summary:
“Yeah? How long since you were last in the ring, Knives Millions?”

It’s a provocation. Nai shouldn’t lower himself to this level. But his blood is seething in his veins, and something about Wolfwood’s smug fucking face has Nai’s knuckles itching.

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Relationship: Millions Knives/Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Characters: Millions Knives (Trigun), Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting / Fist Fights / Blood and Violence / Coming In Pants / Belligerent Sexual Tension / vague au ft prizefighter ww and gang leader knives

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

pov: you're the most fuckable person at the grocery store (2023-2025) — E | 49.8k | #kniveswood — Nai has sex with some asshole who’s after Vash. It was only supposed to happen once. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/49952794

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pov: you're the most fuckable person at the grocery store
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Summary:
“You want to fuck my brother, don’t you?” Nai shrugs the blanket off his shoulders, folding it into a neat square. Underneath, his upper body is bare and tight and very, very jacked. “I look just like him. How about I give you what you want instead, and then you leave us the hell alone?”

—

Nai has sex with some asshole who’s after Vash.

It was only supposed to happen once.

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Relationships: Millions Knives/Nicholas D. Wolfwood, Millions Knives & Vash the Stampede (Trigun), Minor or Background Relationship(s)
Characters: Millions Knives (Trigun), Nicholas D. Wolfwood, Vash the Stampede (Trigun), Legato Bluesummers
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting / Falling In Love / Pining While Fucking / Denial of Feelings / Switching / Trans Millions Knives (Trigun) / Rough Sex / Dom/sub Undertones / they bully each other and enjoy it! / Warnings because Nai is mentally ill: / Eating Disorders (orthorexia - no binge/purge) / body image issues / Gender Dysphoria / Intrusive Thoughts / Emotional Manipulation / Anxiety / Dysfunctional Relationships / Jealousy / Background Millionsummers (they are sexting) / occasionally soft and lighthearted despite the nature of these tags. prommy.

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

trigger finger (2024) — E | 1.9k | #vashwood — can't round out my vashwood catalogue without a gun kink fic :)) mind the tags! 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/59504908

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trigger finger
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Summary:
Vash’s lips closed around the barrel. The metal was icy against his skin. He flinched with discomfort as the tip scraped his teeth, the ridge of the front sight sliding along his palate, but Wolfwood only pushed it further in.

*That’s right. You can be rough with me.*

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Relationship: Vash the Stampede/Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Characters: Vash the Stampede (Trigun), Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Additional Tags: Gunplay / Dry Humping / Suicidal Thoughts / welcome to vash's twisted little mind / getting existential suckin off his own gun as one does / themes of atonement and of guilt but most of all: of horny

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

IN THE SHADOW OF HIS WINGS (2024) — G | 2.2k | #vashwood — “You’re bitchin’ more than usual. Layin’ yourself all flat and apologetic—skeeves me the hell out.” Vash blinks, the eyes on his arms blinking with him, and his silence turns a little chagrined. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/59433247

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IN THE SHADOW OF HIS WINGS
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“I’m sorry,” Vash says finally, without meeting Wolfwood’s eyes. “That you have to deal with … all this.”

“I’m sorry, too,” Wolfwood grumbles. “Since you’re bitchin’ more than usual. Layin’ yourself all flat and apologetic—skeeves me the hell out.”

Vash blinks, the eyes on his arms blinking with him, and his silence turns a little chagrined.

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

oxytocin running (2024) — E | 6.9k | #woodknives chapters: 2/5 — Nicholas D. Wolfwood was made to be a weapon, but now he wanders without a wielder: running from the cult that raised him, battling withdrawal from the designer drugs he craves. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/55203871

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ｏｘｙｔｏｃｉｎｒｕｎｎｉｎｇ
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Summary:
Ju Lai is a beast of a city. It will swallow you if you’re not careful, never spit you back out.

Nicholas D. Wolfwood was made to be a weapon, but now he wanders without a wielder: running from the cult that raised him, battling withdrawal from the designer drugs he craves. Drunk and reckless, he bloodies a man’s nose in a bar fight—a man who just so happens to be Millions Knives, Ju Lai’s most vicious gang leader, known to kill for less.

Luckily for Wolfwood, he’s recruiting.

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

say your name, forever (2024) — M | 2.6k | #livash (implied vashwood & livwood) — The empty space between them, the absence at the table—that, too, was a way to remember. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/54529624

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say your name, forever
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Summary:
The empty space between them, the absence at the table—that, too, was a way to remember.

Relationship: Livio The Double Fang/Vash the Stampede (Trigun)
Characters: Livio the Double Fang (Trigun), Vash the Stampede (Trigun), Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Additional Tags:
Post-Trigun Maximum (Manga) / Sexual Content / Grief/Mourning / Cooking / Alcohol / Background Livio the Double Fang/Nicholas D. Wolfwood / Background Vash the Stampede/Nicholas D. Wolfwood / Domestic Bliss / or is it...? / vash and livio miss wolfwood desperately & fuck about it

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

wild stars / desert stars (2023) — G | 2.2k | #vashwood — Wolfwood wonders where he came from. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/51749020

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wild stars / desert stars
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Summary:
“Hey, Spikey,” Wolfwood said, low and gruff in his throat. “There’s something I’ve been meanin’ to ask ya.”

—

Wolfwood wonders where he came from.

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Relationship: Vash the Stampede/Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Characters: Vash the Stampede (Trigun), Nicholas D. Wolfwood
Additional Tags: Campfires / Stargazing / Unresolved Romantic Tension / Pre-Slash / Alcohol / POV Vash the Stampede (Trigun) / trimax canon but don't look at it too hard / some details mixed in from other iterations for spice / vash ponders his lifespan / took that thing nightow said about ww maybe being born on earth / then ran with it in a random direction

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

FEARFULLY, WONDERFULLY MADE (2023) — E | 5.3k | #vashwood — Vash goes to confession. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/51348562

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FEARFULLY, WONDERFULLY MADE
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Summary:
“God might forgive this kinda shit,” Wolfwood snarls, “but I ain’t that easy.”

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Vash goes to confession.

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

pretty fixation (2023) — E | 3.2k | #woodknives — “Well? You gonna ask nicely?” There is a long, slow exhale as Nai appears to settle on a decision he knows he’ll regret. (standalone epilogue to pov; chronologically this was written first!) 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/49828270

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pretty fixation
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Summary:
“Well? You gonna ask nicely?”

There is a long, slow exhale as Nai appears to settle on a decision he knows he’ll regret.

“I want your mouth.” And in a tone full of grinding rocks and magma fury, Nai hisses, “Please.”

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

good old-fashioned lover boy (2023) — M | ~7k | #vashwood — The night begins like this: Vash and Wolfwood in a golden-lit bar, two tall glasses of beer, and the most beautiful woman they’ve seen in a blue moon. The night ends somewhere else entirely. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/49642363

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good old-fashioned lover boy
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Summary:
The night begins like this: Vash and Wolfwood in a golden-lit bar, two tall glasses of beer, and the most beautiful woman they’ve seen in a blue moon.
The night ends somewhere else entirely.

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

Gun Barrel Red Hot (2023) — E | 16.7k | #vashwood — Wolfwood helps Vash deal with a unique problem. (aka the plant heat switching manifesto) 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/47642887

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Gun Barrel Red Hot
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“Spikey,” Wolfwood says, slow and measured. “Are you, uh … are you turned on?”

char ☕@varelsen· Mar 15

A Unity of Distinct Determinations (2023) — T | 5.6k | #vashwood — Some arguments can only be improved by encountering their opposite. Vash and Wolfwood argue. Often. 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/47019625

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A Unity of Distinct Determinations
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Wolfwood threw up one hand, the other still braced against the cross on his shoulder. “Well, I’m sorry, okay? I was trying to help these people. Can you believe that, at least?”

“I …” Vash swallowed. “I don’t want blood on your hands either.”

It’s too late for that, Vash. Don’t you see? It’s been too late for a long time.

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 24

SLAPS MY SELF ON THE BACK

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“Lots to do, busy man, I got you.” Zack crosses his arms over his chest—those arms that are twice the girth of Cloud’s, and for what, they swing the same size sword—and nods knowingly. “But since we’re here anyway, maybe you could make time for your old pal Zack? Might not get another chance, me being dead and all.”

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 18

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Final Frontier zine preview for the fic Starlight, Subterranean (SFW) by varelsen

“So,” Wolfwood says. “If this is the navigation room, where’s the map?”

“Oh. That would be this thing.” Vash points at the dais. “Wonder if it still works?”

Vash approaches the stand and starts fiddling with buttons and switches. Wolfwood instinctively flinches away, then chides himself for being ridiculous. Was he expecting the whole place to blow up, or what?

“So I can’t knock on the wall because of ghosts, but you can mess with some century-old doomsday machine and that’s fine?”

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 8

me daydreaming about the queercoded villain with long blond hair that i invented for my own satisfaction

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 7

WAHH TYSM im so glad they sparked joy 🥹🥹🥹

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 5

"memory magic" telling.... very telling

char ☕@varelsen· Jan 27

Fire, Help Me Forget ——— ~2,500 words | M | #orufrey qifrey's sad jerkoff session ft inappropriate use of magical contraptions 💫 contains spoilers for the latest chapters so tread carefully!! 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/78430046

char ☕@varelsen· Dec 29

nothin like scrolling back through the documence to discover past me WAS in fact cooking 🍳

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A man raised in a cult of superhuman assassins is forced to escape after killing one of his abusive superiors, and finds himself not only on the run and struggling with withdrawals from the cult’s performance-enhancing drugs, but also abandoning his beloved sibling inside. In his sorry state, he’s found by an up-and-coming crime boss—who looks human, but is actually a lab-grown prototype created from a fusion of human and alien cells to generate limitless resource production for humanity. The gangster recruits the assassin to assist him in his revenge plot against the corporation that made both him and his lost twin, in exchange for the promise of the drugs he can’t get on his own—but neither of them was expecting the sexual tension that draws them to each other. Their bonds with their respective siblings will lead them to very different conclusions about what is worth sacrificing in a mission of liberation and vengeance, forcing them both to grapple with the meaning of their existence as beings made to be tools.

char ☕@varelsen· Jul 20

me , tumblr user cloudstrifing, trying to write cloud strifes pov like

char ☕@varelsen· Jun 8

finally getting around to posting the fic I wrote for @holysmokezine.bsky.social ✝🚬 ——— bloody nose blues 2.7k | E | #woodknives tldr: beating the shit out of the guy you like counts as flirting, surely? 🔗: ao3.org/works/66307024

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char ☕@varelsen· May 25

hello kwk nation!! i wrote a gritty little #woodknives prizefighter AU for @holysmokezine.bsky.social, bc as the old adage goes, beating the shit out of some guy is also yaoi. the zine is FREE so go ahead and grab your copy here to check out everyone's delicious work: holysmokezine.itch.io

char ☕@varelsen· Apr 21

i'm so grateful to all the readers who supported me as i was writing this fic, especially to everyone who left such glowing reviews of the central character 🥰🥰🥰

snippets of various ao3 comments:
- smoothie bowl of problems in his head
- the most toxic boy this side o the mississippi
- tortured little soul :3
- this emotional wreck of an asshole
- [said full of affection] oh my god nai you have so many problems.
- pale sack of gender dysphoria
- THIS MESSY BITCH I NEED TO DISSECT HIM LIKE A VINTAGE COOCOO CLOCK
- both pathetic and also incredibly mentally ill
- even when he's being the least normal person alive, which is always
- sweetheart sweetie pie u gotta at least finish an actual therapy appointment i think
- oh my god he's perfectly terrible.

char ☕@varelsen· Apr 20

pov: you're the most fuckable person at the grocery store #kniveswood 🔁 #woodknives 💙 modern au 💙 rated E 💙 49.8k words Nai sleeps with some asshole who's after Vash. It was only supposed to happen once. 🔗 Now complete! All 9 chapters on AO3 here: archiveofourown.org/works/49952794

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“You want to fuck my brother, don’t you?” Nai shrugs the blanket off his shoulders, folding it into a neat square. Underneath, his upper body is bare and tight and very, very jacked. “I look just like him. How about I give you what you want instead, and then you leave us the hell alone?”

char ☕@varelsen· Apr 19

robin,,,,,

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char ☕@varelsen· Feb 16

say your name, forever #livash | 2.6k | rated M | post-trimax «Tobacco and sweat. The smell filled Livio’s head until he was dizzy. Neither of them smoked.» 🔗: archiveofourown.org/works/54529624

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 16

these PANELS !!!!

char ☕@varelsen· Feb 9

GRIPS YOU......... YEAH ....

char ☕@varelsen· Dec 3

YEAYEYEYSYEAAHHHHY!!!!!