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@athazagora
Account for posting lewds and any shamelessly horny yearning stuff, the scraps from main basically. Main is @phobia.bsky.social
weight loss is going steady but slow, feels great to be moving more again though. The other day accidentally just spaced and walked an extra 15k steps but honestly can just walk and walk. def miss wandering my old mountain home town all day.
Going through old art, nostalgic for the time when I was energized and hopeful and saw so much possibility in all this. Drew this lil comic excited to be moving to the place that ended up killing all that energy and hope and enthusiasm and any self joy I had finally built up.
Going through the pile of post it's i drew while coming off meds, don't remember drawing this so yeah not uhhh trying those again lol
I saw that thing going around again of the paintings nine years apart and just damn my heart aches for something like in my life. A comfy home you get to live in for years, someone to share that with and celebrate. Really can't get it out of my head lately.
Last night was rough but ended so wonderfully. Went to a cute queer bar that just opened and stayed till 4am. Took so many wonderful pics of all the amazing people I met there.
We just watched Girls Last Tour which reminded me of this book I read a long time ago. Grabbed a copy, time for Girls Most Fucked Up Tour.
Probably the person that knows me best said as a puppy girl this is what she thinks is my energy. I told her that is very sweet, but Im also not sure if those dogs get to come inside and rest and get the affection the puppies do. Which does still, seem accurate.
So many complicated transition and life feelings lately. Genuinely wonder how much processing power in my brain gets taken up every day by them. I think if any aspect of life became stable and just good and growing it would help. Not sure what aspect of life to pursue that in though.
Dropped by the sculpting place today, the teacher of the class I'm taking next month was there and we ended up talking for a bit. I ended up getting tools for the class and some alabaster to practice on until the class begins.