BOY IT SURE IS NICE WHEN MY MAIN DONATION STREAM IS DOWN MOST OF THE MORNIN

My ex's insurance plan that also covered me as their common-law spouce, had $75,000 worth of coverage for any non-covered gender affirming care. I didn't get to use a fucking cent of it.

Did my grocery trip today so my cupboards are full but my bank account is empty. I have food and bills paid for this week so I'm funding towards closing out the month strong. I've been doing everything I can to make money, but I'm still struggling to stay above water. Thank you very much.

Trying to pick up the pieces again and trying to force myself to do more deliveries. I am capped at what I'm allowed to earn, and I'm still trying to push through my PTSD to get on the road more often, so anything else helps bridge the gaps. Thank you. 💕💸🏳️‍⚧️

I am 47 and I am out of second chances to give from this point on, I think.

Being terminally online means you will read this word the wrong way. "Citrussy" You fucking pervert.

Yesterday, my best friend in the world came over, and seeing I was going through some depression, decided to give me the 'Hard Truth' that I am not actually attractive to anyone, and that's why I have been trouble meeting anyone when I go to socal events. I didn't take it well. I'm still not okay.

Hey. I'm awake. I survived. I'm... not okay but I'll get there. I just don't know what's next now. ... just going to train for my tryout.

It's time, isn't it? What more is left?

Y'all win. I won't post photos anymore. I know I'm ugly and no one wants to see them. I'm gonna delete my insta shortly.

Welp. That's it. No more local friends. Everyone I trusted hurt me, betrayed me, lied to me, or left me. How can I possibly trust anyone in my life, ever again?

Well I guess I officially fail at every single thing I try.

Still no set wins with Yasmine, down to Plat 3 so far. I really gotta figure out why I am dogshit :/

Hey please help? Things are just not good. I'm not doing well on my own and I'm still having trouble even trying to keep some normalcy. My extra income isn't anywhere near where I needed it to be and I need assistance to survive. Thank you. Anything helps.

Why can't someone just come and take care of me and let me just not worry about anything and let me finally exist and breathe and relax and not be responsible for another person like I have been for the last 25 years. I finally get to exist for myself and no one else and I'm just scared and alone

I just want to stop asking the question "Why didn't anyone protect me?"

I can't do anything that even slightly risks negative emotions anymore because if I have them I crash out so hard and I can't do anything to stop it and I end up suicidal and having a meltdown.

I did my first DoorDashing yesterday, and I don't think I can rely on it as directly for additional income, given my early account restrictions and not realizing that delivery tipping is something that most people DON'T do. I still need this fundraiser to cover the gaps, thank you for everything.

"So anyways, at the orgy -- or 'Puppy Playdate' as they're called nowadays" (This emdash brought to you by not AI)

I got my first tip! $5 for a 35 min ride out to Coquitlam, made $15 total on the order. That's.. not terrible!

For the record, I am capped at $600 a month in Door Dash earnings. Even a penny more and my assistance starts getting debited 1:1. I would need to make, AT MINIMUM, $1600 a month dashing to make it worthwhile at that point and not essentially lose money vs my current situation. I guess we'll see.

Don't you hate when you go to an indy pro wrestling show and there's always like, 10-15 people who still think it's WWE Attitude era and have 3:16 shirts and shit? Those people are always the FUKKING worst. How are you a wrestling fan? You haven't watched any product in like 2 decades!!

The bike shop did a temporary repair on my bike (-$100) so I should be able to DoorDash for a few weeks to save up for the necessary repair (-$500+) so anything donated right now helps tremendously, I've basically wiped out my cushion again. Thank you so much.

Sorry for all my deleted posts. I was off my estrogen shots for over a week. I was NOT doing okay.

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If I was as hot/gorgeous as everyone keeps telling me, I am 99% sure at least one person IRL would have made at a pass at me. Why are you all lying to me?

I feel like I can no longer pretend that I'm not fairly attractive at this point and it feels REALLY FUKKIN WIERD to admit that to myself out loud.

So the ONE cis dude at the rave I gave the time of day to, and exchanged socials with, blocked me the next morning. Sorry, am I not really fucking obviously trans or did dude get regret even possibly being FRIENDS with me. JFC MEN THIS IS WHY NO ONE LIKES YOU

So the ONE cis dude I gave the time of day to, and exchanged socials with, blocked me the next morning. Sorry, am I not really fucking obviously trans or did dude get regret even possibly being FRIENDS with me. JFC MEN THIS IS WHY NO ONE LIKES YOU

How I entered the rave vs how I left it. I had a GOOD fucking time at Pride, is what I'm trying to say.