I ordered this since it was cheap. let's all ask it to be nice to me. I put some on an area with no eczema and it started itching which can't be a good sign but... have to hope it works. my skin is really dry so I do need to moisturise

before:

like obviously it's still there and I expect it to come back again with a vengeance later but for now it's so much better. WHY would that have helped?!

I had a stir fry! and didn't pass out. not a very nice evening though. or morning since I got turfed out of the kitchen before I could get food. it's quite cool outside though! :)

here we go again feel like I'm gonna fucking pass out so shaky. they're back soon need to use veggies up as much as possible I'm so tired I'm so tired fuck!

I'm going to cook some bacon. not used to streaky bacon. there's not really any meat on it. it makes me think of calficer in Howl's moving castle

STOP ITCHING AAAAAHH fuck!!!! it's so itchy!! it's on my legs too omg it's so itchy and dry 😭

bloon

managed to have a little nap. went outside to get a delivery and saw a red admiral :)

oh yeah I put some lipstick on earlier to take a photo of my hair and it immediately got stuck ._.

it's so much cooler out than in rn 🌬️

found an extremely pissed off bee on the floor. it's outside now. as I carried it out it was trying to shove its way under the bottom of the glass and buzzing (in like bursts?) so hard i nearly dropped it ngl I moved as fast as I could after tipping out; I'm allergic to bee stings 😬

and look who else I saw! she wasn't fazed by the flash this time. very happy to see her still there and thriving. she must be getting a lot of bugs this time of year. I think this is the clearest shot I've got of her yet.

went back outside and managed to get a photo of the moth I was trying to take a pic of earlier. there were actually way more, prob since it's dark now. the flash did unfortunately discombobulate it a bit which I know can disrupt their sense of direction. sorry moth :( (I was very quick)

where the cat rubbed against my arm :( this is after antihistamine and bath. looks worse irl. sort of purple. also I thought it would be cooler in room since I left the window wide open but it's somehow hotter?!

sat outside for 2 seconds. went to take a photo of a bug, got jumpscared by that cat that keeps coming back. hadn't seen it in ages. rubbed himself allllll over me and then jumped into the house so I had to chase him outside 😖

9am and it's already 30 degrees in my room. I only slept 3 hours and that was split up through the night. it got cool enough around 4am but then a fucking wood pigeon sat in the bush next to my window. I'm miserable. bad PEM, splitting headache that won't respond to painkillers, allergies bad too

excuse the poor presentation. look how cute the fishcakes are! my esophagus doesn't feel happy though lol 😔 going to drink some gaviscon and hope for the best

i'll have to go if it doesn't improve or gets worse what's extremely weird is the second i hit my head the tinnitus "volume" went up stupidly loud but i was instantly able to tolerate sound better than i have in years???? lmao

:(

barely shows in photos because stupid phone has some anti redness filter. also whitens eyes so when I have severely bloodshot eyes it's impossible to take a photo and you can't turn it off. you can kind of see the bumps here. They're very red a and everywhere, whole body but not face or neck

too tired to wait all day for home visit. relay service is down so can't reschedule. I just know the GP will blame me for this. nothing ai Can Do, been trying since 8am. so so so tired can't look at my phone any longer. have to sleep. just says this for 30+ minutes then call ends

it looked so cool in person ;-; just use your imagination

Rx dropped off & she also brought me some fish!! so that's nice 😊 made me really happy have to try rest for an hour now. forgot to say big fan packed up for real this morning so I've been using little one all day. not ideal but better than nothing!

bought this months ago "just in case" and it actually came in handy! also GP was really nice. it's the guy I used to see when I was a teenager.

nah it's just that most of my things are really, really cheap and poor quality. the fan shouldn't be because it was bloody expensive but the same thing has happened to more than one of them now. I just looked at reviews and it seems to be a common complaint

foooooood!! food!!!! I am so tired but I have food I can eat in my room yay!!!! 💖

this is what my inbox looks like from the other day. as you can see, only the second to last email actually contained a link, and that link gave me very little space to respond. I could only respond once.

[fireworks, babies laughing, a crowd cheers, birdsong, bottles popping etc]

anyway here's dinner. chickpea curry, lime and coriander rice, Bombay potatoes, salad. going to eat this and then go straight to bed.