JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea

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JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· 28d

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· 28d

im gonna Freak Out. good work everyone holy shit

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· 28d

[ SHORTSTOP BY THE SEA ] is now available. Baseball is about waiting for something to happen. Baseball is about being powerless. Baseball is about not getting what you want. Baseball isn't about anything. 9k words, for adult audiences only. #toxicyurivnjam killjill.itch.io/shortstop-by...

"But my heart has dulled to it. Call me selfish, but part of my enjoyment came from being able to imagine myself on the field. Running around and defending and sending people down to be relegated to some AA team. I've always been mean like that. But I can't anymore. It's not a field for me any longer. I could reach and reach and it wouldn't matter. Landis' ghost still haunts the field almost a hundred years later. One could try their best to imagine the players as sexless amoebae, but the untold truth of it was that in all but officiality it was all boys' leagues."

"Summer like a sheet, humid cloud sticking to you like thirsting tongue.

Beat-beating down it is on me and every we of the field and of the bleachers bleaching in the sun.

Bat in hand.

Sun-kissed pitcher throws it to me, but he throws it outside, ball, too outside.

Throws again. Curveball curves into the strike zone. I didn't know when to swing.

Third pitch. Ball whizzes by my head and into the catcher's mitt."

"'I'm, not allowed?'

'It's fine, you could drink in Canada.'

'But it's not Canada.'

'We're close enough.'

Then you smirked. 'I Had my first beer when I was 13. You could do worse.'"

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jul 3

#toxicyurivnjam www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-OB...

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 19

watched some awesome stuff and also the backrooms

eephus (2024)
tifusari (1964)
backrooms (2026)
maska crvene smrti (1970)

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 18

how jam dev is going

one folder named 'horn samples' with some vlc type files and then another folder titled 'tim lincecum circa 2010 world series' dont worry about it

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 14

women and girls i like

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 9

play my game about how flatties are god's favorites killjill.itch.io/postcardfrom...

postcard from brentville screenshot "So flat you'd think God bulldozed it as if to say, 'Flat is Justice! Hallelujah!'

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 9

a lot of me and lyn's portraits look like this when put next to each other

my gf's character duha looking really fucking cool and awesome and moody and chuuni next to mumugi mugi who kind of looks like that one comic panel where tom from tom and jerry is talking about the mortality rates of car crashes

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 9

mumugi mugis

it's mumugi mugi in ishgard in the evenstar outfit looking quizzically at the camera

mumugi mugi with a new hairstyle and she looks like an onion but also looks moody in the harsh light streaming through the window

mumugi mugi looking at the camera in an even more quizzical and perhaps judgmental way

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 5

new sketchbook goofin

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 2

happy pride play my trannyge killjill.itch.io

ESP:ExtraSensitive Pervert "Wh... What the fuck?"

EASYxSHOT "So you're going along with me on the motherly angle then, little Oedipus?"

FAITHLESS//FLAGELLANT "Can I shake your hand, or are you gonna piss yourself?"

postcard from brentville "The freezing thing's throat crackles out an indistinct something, neither here nor there, can't make up her mind. Can't be assed to be. Nothing but mewling 'ah's 'uhm's and 'mm's."

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· Jun 1

holy fucking moly

1,606 people and counting have joined the toxic yuri vn jam 2 holy moly

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 29

this bit from gentrification of the mind really gets it

Just as gentrification literally replaces mix with homogeneity, it enforces itself through the repression of diverse expression. This is why we see so much quashing of public life as neighborhoods gentrify. Permits are suddenly required for performing, for demonstrating, for dancing in bars, for playing musical instruments on the street, for selling food, for painting murals, selling art, drinking beer on the stoop, or smoking pot or cigarettes. Evicting four apartments and replacing them with one loft becomes reasonable and then desirable instead of antisocial and cruel. Endless crackdowns on cruising and "public" sex harass citizens. The relaxed nature of neighborhood living becomes threatening, something to be eradicated and controlled.
Since the mirror of gentrification is representation in popular culture, increasingly only the gentrified get their stories told in mass ways. They look in the mirror and think it's a window, believing that corporate support for and inflation of their story is in fact a neutral and accurate picture of the world. If all art, politics, entertainment, relationships, and conversations must maintain that what is constructed and imposed by force is actually natural and neutral, then the gentrified mind is a very fragile parasite.

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 29

meowls faggishly

Q: What kind of gun is the sexiest?

A: i'm not much of a gun pervert However. it's hard to beat a revolver 🔫🔫🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄Twelve Shots. 🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 28

im mumugi mugi

its mumugi mugi sitting very politely on a couch

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 25

can you believe it guys? Toxic Yuri VN Jam 2! TYVNJ2! just a week away! TYVNJ2 is in a week! woohoo! i am so happy about this information. :D TYVNJ2, just a week away! oh wow. can you believe it? Toxic Yuri VN Jam 2! just in a week! it got here so fast! Toxic Yuri VN Jam 2 itch.io/jam/toxic-yu...

toxic yuri visual novel jam 2 is next monday!

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 18

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 16

(2024) fill her up

a drawing of ariane and elster from signalis where ariane is squirting milk from her boob into elster's open chest cavity. there is a wet trail leading from ariane's pussy to elster's mouth.

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 14

didi f//f saying "I want to be friends with Claire, yeah." while i'm hovering "That's a bad idea."

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 14

happy birthday yori n thelma!

a bunch of miis singing happy birthday to yori

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 12

thursday making a new rule saying "Respect Women" with death pinning it

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 12

i got scared bc i thought i was out of charas and then i remembered Her

a picture of Her from postcard in tomodachi life

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 10

this isn't the right type of momcon

Q: best writing advice youve seen or recieved?

A: i don't think i have anything that i can really particularly recall other than alan moore's 'read terrible books'. it's something that i think encourages a lot more curiosity because on one hand sometimes you read something expecting it to be ass but there are nuggets of things you really like and that can help inform your own opinions and tastes, but there's also the more obvious matter of, in his words, 'jesus christ, i could write this shit' and being able to dissect what doesn't work and why. you have to be curious. my other piece of advice is that you have to be curious about the world around you because you're most likely not going to make something particularly gripping if all of your inspirations are medium-incestuous

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 10

i've gotten Some of the postmortem written out, it'll be done eventually but here are some postcard+kig thoughts

Q: how'd you get into dolls/kig? what inspired postcards from brentville? (also, i played through it - it's tragic, broke my heart, challenged how i felt about myself, and i loved every moment of it - so ty you and pilot for that!)

A: thank you for the kind words! i've been enamored with kigurumi for quite some time but hadn't really known how to step into it until pilot had given me a lot of help and guidance when i'd really started wanting to Grasp it, and that sort of yearning for kig i think really manifested in postcard... i remember seeing a chiaki nanami kig when i was a teen and was really enamored with that but it wasn't until years and years later where i'd put more thought into it when my love for kig openly blossomed into what it is now... dolls are more of a recent interest, though after getting into kig i might have to wait before i hop into another potentially spenso hobby haha, one day i may want my own angel philia there's something kind of awesome about how they're detailed in the ways that they are. it's quite profound that they have little doll butt holes

as far as what made postcard come about, it was largely influenced by being out in the midwest for a few months and the ways of which it made me feel vs. being in new england and i was definitely also taking an amount of inspiration from my own upbringing and all the various types of loneliness/alienation/atomization that a lot of circumstances would bring about, all on top of my own incidental desires to kig out and to really embody something. i wanted to write about it both from the perspective of a visitor, and as someone who's been deeply entrenched within it... i'll have a lot more to say about it once i get that damn postmortem written out

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 9

gail esp saying "Are you just, like, walking through life without paying attention to stuff?"

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 8

game banners for website

a bunch of banners featuring all of the games i've worked on

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 8

this is so fucked up. this is so fucked up. i feel like here you can especially see that i used kageaki as ref for didi

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 8

i accidentally un-inverted the f//f portraits while i was working on making some banners for my site and so i had to go through and see what would happen it's so fucked up i've never seen them like this

JILLIAN F. KILLS⚾Shortstop by the Sea@killjill· May 8

it's a kiggy kig world, and i'm hungry