vn number 5 is "no mirame, cuando lloro" by pupn1k on itch; think this is my favorite in terms of relatability so far -- just liked how it dealt with some strange feelings regarding self and suicide and s/h, all in a tight succinctly written package; still having a lot of fun with this; do it w/ me!

getting head start on no mirame cuando lloro, for tomorrow:s vn; it:s become a very enjoyable routine, can almost imagine myself doing all 500; have enjoyed everything i:ve read; watched an episode of mamotte shugogetten after muuu sent me the op, it:s cute, she looks like a divine albino cockroach

4th day of reading toxic yuri vn jam submissions; oblivion 2666 by solarautomata on itch today; presentation on this one is pretty killer, barely resembles a renpy game; story is super ghostly; i need a new book to read though, or i could read more VNs alternatively; haven:t been sleeping lately

day three is celestial counterfeiter by itsahime on itch; both the first fantasy entry i:ve read and the first one with erotic scenes in it; really liked the little dialogue icons, they reminded me of something (maybe snes kirby? maybe a rance game?) + really liked the fantasy exposition

today i finished the baseball vn i retweeted, 2-4 '94 by kazehai on itch; really pretty amazed with it; think the world of the writing; the most alive i:ve felt reading something; blue was my favorite because i liked how she is old and just turns all communication into one-way baseball flattening

getting a head start on tomorrows reading; i like blue here, i like reading stories with older characters + baseball so 2-4 '94 has been a total treat; if only i had a career like blue; i could just harass one person for a lifetime on the phone and communicate one-way about ball

finished first toxic yuri read this morning, double yolk; my favorite part was the letter portion, it hits a stride in part 3; was busy this morning so had no time to write; first two episodes of blue seed are really neat, don:t think i:ll finish it but it made me think of how dated tentacles seem

this is for yesterday, to set the posts to be at four; downloaded a bunch of VNs i saw, might try to do one a day until i get burned out; i wrote a bunch; i jinx myself talking about it, but it:s nice to have something come together lately; my reading is fun, too, & i still am enjoying wilbow:s ward

maybe i:m in a VN reading mood; i saw that the Siren's Call sequel came out, so i:d like to read that at some point; i:d like to do a round of the yuri entries (if you made one and want me to read it, tell me and i will); my small writing project gave me a little life lately; i hurt my back at work

sabbath writing is posted; seeing all these yuri jam vns (vns in general) makes me feel like i:m missing out on something, always; feel myself being drawn back to isaac again, i saw that there are official isaac figurines: they:re really cute; been reading nezumi:s first love; been writing a story

gogh free for a bit, if you wanted to try it; so far i don:t feel very productive; i need to draw and i try to draw and then i can:t draw; started watching coppelion, the skirts are distracting seems cool though; i really like the book i:m reading atm, it:s fun; have a superpower story idea

not sure i want to keep watching speed grapher; it:s alright but also a little stupid, i keep getting this impression that it has the "heart" and blood of a show made for young kids but the director was told to watch eyes wide shut then told to Make it extra slutty; gets flatter the more i watch it

i missed my fourth post yesterday leaving the post at three; this will be the fourth, then four more today to level it out; i lost something at work today; downloaded coppelion, wind breaker; watching speed grapher; very little fire works; i:m the biggest firework; i bang the loudest; watch anime?

funny thing that i:ve been feeling pangs of nostalgia for the first few seasons of southpark and the old n64 game, coinciding with me seeing kenny x shelly fanart and realizing shelly has the denpa VN character design; for no real substantial reason i like shelly now

head feels like an active cyst, been incredibly dizzy for hours; made some progress with writing this morning -- feel good about that; been disinterested in everything except anime and reading lately ("you dreamed of empires"), very tired; want to do a routine break for the day; maybe eat meat today

we could watch darker than black together, i don:t watch very fast, so it:s easy to keep up with me, it might be fun; i felt sick with myself enough that all i could make myself do was read and write, so i did both, i picked up one of the gifted books and read till eight pages and it stopped perfect

the internet sin paywall for june is done; thank you very much to everyone who supported me, it means a great deal to me; and for readership, too, still happy to see someone liked my haunted house story demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/june-subsc...

cat euthanized on halloween, from memory, needed warmup

was feeling good yesterday, ate food got sick; i:m really loving ward audiobook; after struggling through the first arc i like it more than worm -- it:s like wildbow doing doom patrol, and that:s really neat; ate lunch today, now feel sick; received nice message yesterday; it:s very hot lately

1992 tenchi finished, finished "white note pad" too; feel like i:m in pieces today, and in a dream; wrote a bunch to keep busy, the writing is what made me feel like i:m in pieces, though: even if no one reads it, it:s pulled from inside, glass cockroach waits at my lips, calls down my throat

hoitsu hoitsu, i:ve finally finished worm, after several years; there:s like eight hours of epilogue broken up into several chapters, and each has a guest narrator with their own awful mic or diction issues, but the /final/ epilogue chapter? they must:ve paid someone, it:s read so well; it was fun

they touch me and i:m STEW; fever or migraine today; nauseous amount of pain in my head; been laying in bed listening to worm audiobook, very nearly done; the end reminds me of cyberpunk edgerunners in a good way, nightmares about non-scary mundane things

was telling myself i:d get a cubano all day and when time came i couldn:t thinking it would stop my heart; i got a salmon patty at publix, thinking maybe my blood is trying to kill me because i:m failing at dietary rules; thought i need to bleed to get out the glass, too; ran into church person

my master strokes my chin and licks my face and tangles my hair up in their jaggly nails, i look at them and think only But what about Tenchi; forgot to take glass medicine this morning and felt so much pain in my veins at work; like glass; finished painting last night, & had nightmares about it

really love the outfits in this; surprised there was nudity in it; only ~two more arcs + epilogue before i:m done with worm, i really liked the short appearances of lab rat + string theory, for side characters they really burned bright; been reading alice 19th -- it:s cool; been nauseous all day

a four-way tie, balance in all things; started watching the original 1992 tenchi ova, it:s a fun show; tenchi.. what a man! still sick; had episode in my eye of sharp stabbing at it for a minute, feel these wooden worms in my leg; not sure how i feel anymore; realized how thin i am, it:s very thin

saw oliver tree died; been torn up over if Underground will stop my heart, i had a moment at work realizing it as a blessing for underground to touch my heart and stop it as an act of unbelievable love; barely slept from the stress; took more glass medicine; nearing the end of worm; need to write

cleared the first dungeon in shiren 6; skin on my left is like glass, swelling starting again, been taking glass medications; been practicing digital painting daily till last two days, the fear mostly; just lots of fear

for the sabbath this week; it:s an initiation post demon5equal10birth5day3equal8.substack.com/p/orsday-pro...

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