I. Don't. Want. To. Put. Away. Laundry.

The center of gravity moves & I wonder where the universe went when I closed my eyes, the catch in my chest, stomach drop, inner ear, adrenaline floods & I tip backward, #balance lost, spinning, tossed into nothing: the knife's edge cut me unevenly #vss365

I slept. Like REALLY slept. My brain doesn't usually allow this, but apparently the trick is to have my neck at some inhuman angle because I am unable to turn my head much or look down 😅

I would wander the desert a thousand years, #sprint into that sweet oblivion, I would swallow the pillar of salt and unpart the seas, sacrifice every doubt on the altar of truth like the sons I'll never bear you, & sleep sounder in the lions' den than in your bed #vss365

You tell me keep going, as though the steps can move me, as though the time spent passes, as though #momentum will build any moment now, any day now, as though tomorrow will be different from yesterday, as though you never expected me to anyway #vss365

Arthritis flare got my hands pretty rough, so heres my sunset. Im out for the night✌️

Sometimes I see a sparrow savagely beating itself against a #headwind, frozen in the sky as though suspended by wires, making no movement forward, its tiny heart beat fluttering & flailing & I wonder who told her, too, it was laziness to land. #vss365

On the bright side, I'm feeling much more myself today. Ran a mile and a half, but had a *minor* asthma attack. Took an albuterol break, then came back for a slower pace 5k.

I have been impossible so many times, risen from graves that claimed better bodies than mine, climbed to where no air remains, & fallen from skies of fire like flaming rain, & I will conquer this, too, make one last miracle: my north, my wish, my truth #vss365

I managed to talk myself into exercise, showering, washing my hair, drying my hair, and even put on makeup. Today, that felt like climbing Everest, and yet I feel zero pride or even relief in accomplishing it. Brain chemistry sucks sometimes.

*sigh*

Mosely is my spirit animal today... and also interfering with my ability to use a keyboard

Everything hurts and I'm dying, lol

Step 1: wash towels Step 2: dry towels Step 3: remove from dryer, place in basket Step 4: set the basket down for 5 seconds before folding so you can pee Step 5: Fisk.

Have a day✌️🔪🫶

We've seen trees contort & lean to find the sun, flowers face each other in #defiance of night, & dandelions crawl through concrete cracks to earn the light, & through a window screen, a houseplant demands compassion for its roots, cramped with nowhere to grow. #vss365

Another day, another assclown coming at me like he knows. 🤣🔪✌️

We have no choice but to stand as we are, an oak judged by maple #appraisals: we burn too hot, unwieldy among tidier trees, offering only acorns & shade but none of the sweet syrup the world would prefer to take from our veins #vss365

I sense the shift, the way a flower feels her petals pull away from the stamen, nascent #apprehension, not knowing if this is what it's like to bloom, or whether unseen hands are drawing her apart to drop "he loves me, loves me, loves me not" #vss365

Adorn the blade, gild it if you will, fling your #florid sad sort of excuses in my face while my wounds flow, but I would know your hand anywhere. #vss365

I'm about to do my lift, and was mentally trying to decide what to do today, whether I should try to work on book 4, when I got a notif (other app) that felt like the universe nudging. 🥹🥰

Over on threads, I got shamed by a man for... *checks notes* ...bullying a welcome mat.

What sin is in the mingling of souls born together millennia ago, not within a #flea as Donne dreamed, but inside the mouth of time, drowning in the infinite—what sin is it to touch your three hearts to mine? #vss365

Even trees speak, if you know their language. Withering leaves means I need rain. Bent branches say I've craned my neck for a speck of your sun light. But some only see the browning, the broken, a new #villain in your garden of eden. #vss365

🎵MAAAAHHHH HEART'S IN CARDIO, IT BEATS FOR YOU THO I RUN SLOW🎵

Say those three words I wanna hear

This might look like before and after weight loss pics. It's not. These were taken 2 days apart. Clothing, posture, angles, etc can make people look vastly different, and if you have dysmorphia like I do, that can seriously fuck with your head.