Nikki 🐀
@shr00m
27, mutt, high vibe environment #ratverified 🐀
drunk as a fucking skunk doing a tarot reading with my sister who just moved to Boston and listening to suda51 game music and literally never been happier in my entire life
cannot get over how proud i am of myself for being trans this world is such shit i cant even imagine if i was still lying to myself too
someone made eye contact with me as if they have the right to consider my existence
woke up went to go shower looked in the mirror and immediately made the fuckin tim heidecker face at myself i think its fucking over
its really hitting that im alone and ive always been alone and its all been hallucinated closeness with strangers in my life
i wish my tits and ass were way bigger like huge but not cartoonish idont want like crazyy but something WOWOW and also i wish someone just took a shotgun to my crotch but it didnt kill me. and my shoulders/general build wasnt awful and disgusting, and all my skin was torn off and set on fire
i wish someone would get high with me and watch youtube videos of car accidents…
like god fucking damn dude like wow i want him to yell at me and call me a whore or get mad about my poor money management or something
danny huston is the hottest human being who has ever lived and if my life ended with him executing me like robin wright in the congress it would be a happy ending
im not capable of overcoming my selfhatred or addiction, i live to disconnect and i dont think thats gonna ever change ballsfish