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@anamiacity1

29 • vent account • ment-ill dx include: AuDHD, (C+)PTSD, DID, ED, OCD [etc.] • goal: maintain 💪 18.5-18.9 to keep people off my back • we can't fuckin sleep • pro-recovery (DNI if you are not) ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤

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--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jul 10

finally home btw and mad that our hands weren't torn up symmetrically...because this happened before we even realised it was happening, we aren't considering it sh, but had we continued going to make it even, THAT would've felt like a relapse. so we just have uneven hands now lowkey wanna relapse fr

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jul 7

FINALLY rly rough draft of ✨The Container✨ and just realised the time so we're gonna brush teeth now and if we can lay down then we will attempt sleep and if Body Memories are being Stupid still then we'll polish this up. been meaning to do this for a minute and if we don't tonight we might never 😂🤣

"NOTE: This item is prohibited for carry-on aboard the rocketship to Happy Place. All contents must remain on Earth."
metal container with both a padlock and slide lock which doubles as a wand with which to gather The Problematic Things into said container. top of box has textured design reminiscent of a flower with a diamond/star/compass middle that bows inward and holds the wand/lock as well as the key to the padlock. there is a(n invisible) breath lock over these items which only respond to Us.

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jul 6

B got us this cool metal sign!! :D hehe we're gonna hang it over the art area that we're gonna create in the space that we keep forgetting is available to us now that more of our house is empty 😂 we are trying to remember we are allowed to (and should! 😇) take up more space 😅

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jul 1

yay fr AC bcuz WTF 🤯😭

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jun 8

tw//body✔️ and sh venting cos how TF am i supposed to look at that vein and not want to slice it open in every way possible!? (traced so it stands out from the old scars)

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Jun 8

check Alt if illegible, we've been up roIodexing since 0300 and exhausted

supine shut-eye required - i tried
laying down was hard - i cried
drained my eyes, my mind i fried
hold me til my tears are dried

to this bed i find im tied
frightened, might have lost my pride
drifting mind just like the tide
quiet life from my hands pried

strive to fly, im in a bind
crying, trying, cannot find
peaceful scenes with someone kind
family inside my mind

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 31

tw//SA vent art collages (semi ambiguous?) printer cartridges smeared on scrap paper ~2018?

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 26

Amen (synesthesia snapshot # 5) watercolours -05.2026

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 22

tw//body✔️ (covered) since Nobody Else would post this (we're technically 0.2 out of range but WHAT THE FUCK EVER LOL)...post workout: couple relaxed, couple flexed. first takes cos irdgaf rn haha. (for future selves: dw, mirror flex shot includes shoulder blade, it's not a bunch of loose skin lmao.)

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 19

tw//SA (tw for poem, not context - by mel+vik, so the handwriting is weirder than normal, also everything hurts for various reasons so shaky..."jape" is to say or do something in jest or mockery; i think it usually has a lighter connotation, but we needed another rhyme and it gave gaslighting vibes)

rape was his game on awaking
taped up, all while he is taking
draped clothes off me, body's shaking
shaped bruises, could not be faking
scraped up and my body's breaking
gaped open, my breath forsaking
japed as if im not still quaking
escaped it all with heart still aching

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 15

-khaos (LH, + no relapse)

my main vein of safety
cradled like a baby
hastily unveiling
blades creating frailty
lately hazy, may be crazy
mainly shaky, freight too weighty

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 14

gonna try this brand tonight >:D we survived the appointments and don't feel like waiting for rice to have with legumes. might do some eggs too tho idk.

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 11

lol need to add shaving to the list 💀 (the hair on my head is so damn long anyway tho it affects my headaches when i wear it up 💀)

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 9

this morning lot of words bounce around in head. only these 8 (+1/2) make it to your eyeballs. presenting "vs." lol it a mind war. battle. thingy. we don't rly have much of say over 🤣 but WE SURVIVE.

competent concentration [vs.] compromised computations
complex contemplation [vs.] compressed complications

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 8

tw//bc (clothed) first time wearing this comfy ass shirt - WE ARE THE STORM. and we might need new jeans 😂

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 7

apparently we separated the reposthreads (oop, see this is why we need to just make an actual thread, ugh), but here's today's brain baby. (felix+mel)

time to conquer one more year
once more it's without the beer
learning how to shed a tear
this is Us facing our fear

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 7

soberthday (n.): a birthday in which a recovering alcoholic indulges in alcohol-like beverages example: yo, this soberthday bout to be LIT!

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 7

khaotic dream watercolours ~2026

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 6

flng bttr n clckng bck nto wrk nw 😹

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 5

Kaleidoscope Quilt paint markers on mini canvas ~2024

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 5

tw//SA...workout counting failed. again. so we wrote. again. yay. 😵🔫 the quest mentioned has changed btw don't worry, this was just written in Flashback Space where we feel like we *are* dying and sometimes physically cannot breathe lol but we are okay!! im actually feeling a Switch as we type so...

toxic traits were all suppressed, was i blinded? just obsessed?
every inch of me caressed? more like tortured and distressed
knee digging into my chest, on my neck your hand is pressed
struggling to catch a breath, wishing you'd just cause my death
vision fading, should've guessed; no desire to ingest
puke it so i don't digest, leaving this world is my quest
did you think i'd be impressed? what made you act so possessed?
giving that insane stress test, they might need a quick inquest

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 5

idk if this even makes sense outside my head we need some fuckin sleep but here this morning's brain baby, check Alt if illegible, hand shaking and pen being a turd

careening towards the trees, feel the breeze freeze my knees
pleading, please, need some peace, sanity needs to increase
creepy dreams stealing screams, feeling weak from the extremes
centipedes searing me, healing, merely leisurely

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 4

Beans (~khaos sh fantasy vent...not everyone sees it, but a pastry icon from a game has triggered us before, so we figure better safe than sorry) watercolours ?? 2025

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 4

okie this'll be Amen (remix) synesthesia thread...keep having the track on repeat cos it's so calming :')😌 and then Brain is like "but these sound waves=COLOURS" (THANK YOU @noose.rip for sharing your music, sry if it was weird to tag you here...felt weirder to not mention the source/inspiration? 😅)

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 3

Perspective (Bloomed & Barren) old printer cartridges ~July 2018

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 2

*we did not relapse* just Remembering cos it's how we FEEL rn (check Alt if illegible...non-dominant hand)

bandaging wounds that were seeping
banning blades, gone for safekeeping
daydreaming of deeper sleeping
craving dreams with scarcer weeping

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 2

the water ISSO PRETTYYY 😻 hehehe okie now time to clean up and workout! 😼 might take nap if we're still tired after, been up for idk how many hrs but not been moving so feeling very antsy 😅

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 2

Amen (synesthesia snapshot) watercolours 05.02.26

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· May 2

Wanderer ("remixed") (check Alt if illegible...we're tired and fighting right now)

Dancing in the rain that extinguished my flame
Training up my brain to reframe all the shame
Ain't nothin' to gain from maintaining this game
Carrying the pain that I just cannot name
Jumpin' on a plane that's inside of my brain
Lookin' for someone to blame, maybe to frame
Only my brain's names remain, not quite the same
Sanity's my main aim, tired of feeling lame

--•- •• -•--@anamiacity1· Apr 30

Stitched old printer cartridges on scrap paper ~Jul. 2018