delle 🪐 (@galaxyanalogy) · DIRTY

delle 🪐

@galaxyanalogy

delle • 27yo • they/them • 🔞 nsfw, no irl 🔞 • fandom stuff and fantasy silicone collecting • discord: dellenelle • all other sites: galaxyanalogy + same pfp

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delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· 12d

green surprise <3

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· 12d

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· 12d

naiad x2

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· 13d

my pics show off the sparkle well but the room lighting is so terrible lol

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· 13d

dong postin'

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Jul 5

I love my collar from @bbleatherwork.bsky.social 💚

A selfie of the torso of a person with short brown hair wearing a black bra and a black collar with a metal ring at the front. The collar has small stripe details in Aro Pride flag colors. The person has their head tipped back to show off the collar. Their face is not shown.

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Jun 24

placed my first ever order yesterday morning and it's already in the mail today!! so exciting!! i splurged a little and bought myself a collar 😳 i wasn't planning on spending that much but i was really drawn to the aro pride premade 👉👈 and i've never felt that way before!

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Jun 8

i hope you'll be able to keep the really special ones somehow 💔 may i ask what are the specs of this one? the pour is lovely!

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 31

these are the vibes <3 it's a good time!

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 25

OMFG THIS PACKAGE ISN'T LOST??????

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 11

ah nuts, i was so anxious about making sure i didnt upset my mom yesterday (mother's day)(i usually wouldnt be that anxious but friday night did a doozy on my nerves) that i completely forgot about my stepmom.

tbf my stepmom is more like my dad's partner than a mom to me in my mind, but i still feel guilty because she *has* been in his/my life for a significant amount of time.

it's not really a viable excuse, but i'm just so tired. i feel like ive been trying so hard all weekend to do everything perfectly, juggle all the balls, dont miss any one little task i've been asked to fulfill. the stress has been suffocating, i dont feel at all rested even after 3 days off. and i was already so so so tired from work, ive been so tired for weeks. i thought i had managed to not drop any of the balls this weekend, but guess i was wrong.

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

probably the worst mistake she ever made as my parent is that she coddled me a bit too much. she told me that my education was the most important thing and encouraged me to focus on school rather than chores. she encouraged me to spend time with friends rather than on chores. so now my practical life skills are a little underdeveloped (except lawn mowing - been doing that for years). there's shit i dont know how or when to clean. i suck at cooking and hate doing it. i'm still learning how to care for a car properly. i'm not the most prepared for living life alone. but it's not like i can't just... keep learning that shit now. the ability to learn hasn't magically poofed away.

her biggest mistake is loving me too much and accidentally investing too much in my education. boo hoo. yeah it was a bit inconvenient and embarrasing to have to learn how to do laundry and wash dishes at age 18 before going to college, but again: boo fucking hoo.

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

she's so fucking terrified of being or having been a bad parent and honestly that fear makes her do the worst behavior she has ever done. she's been a fucking wonderful parent, ive been incredibly blessed to have had the childhood i did and it was all because of her selflessness and love for me. but telling her that is never enough. she just spends so much time focusing on all her mistakes and ti doesn't even make her feel better to know i never noticed them or was never negatively impacted by them. her clinging to it causes me far more distress than any of the things she's worreid about ever did.

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

im sitting here holding two scraps of a memory while she's detailing an entire melodrama that she rmemebers it being and im just trying hopeleslly to figure out where my memory scraps fit in while also desperately applying the adult wisdom and current undestanding of myself that ive gained from years of introspection in an attempt to retroactively figure out what the fuck teenage/kid me might have been thinking hwile truly hving no fucking clue and also at the same time trying to figure out the most helpful thing to say or share with mom and i just always fail never say the right thing always make it worse and i just try and try andt ry and it nver right or enough and i dont know what else to do

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

well she wasnt mad befoer but now she is. she called me back wanting to talk about another thing from the past that she's upset about and i tried so so so hard to find the right thing to say to make it better or make her feel better about it but nothign i tried worked even just agreeing with what she was saying wasn't good enough she just kept going over the same details over and over and over again no matter how many times i said it was a decade ago and my friend and i were dumb teenagers who didnt understand how hurtful our actions could be and that we haven't been friends in a decade and i havent thought about the bad parts of that for years and telling her not to feel bad about wigging out then because she had every right to be hurt and that the other kid probably doesn't even remember shit because we haven't seen each other in a literal decade and after another hour and 15 minute phone call all i succeeded in doing was making her more mad about the situation that happened a fucking decade ago i dont know what more or what else i could do i tried so fucking hard and it all failed i always fail i can never say the right thing or be enough i cant cant cant cant cant

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

and it has nothing to do with how much or little i care about her. ive been very open with her that she is the single most important person in my life (to a slightly detrimental degree). i just have such limited energy, especially for conversation/social situations. she's the one who insists on pushing on until i have nothing left to give and then takes it as a sign that i dont care and gets upset. she takes so much personally (because of her past experiences) and then internalizes it and it's just making the problem worse but i highly doubt she'd try to get a therapist to work on it, she'd be more focused on me getting a therapist to help me handle the overwhelmingness of this shitty world we've found ourselves in (which i dont deny would be a good idea for me to do, but that doesn't mean she shouldnt also get one)

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

and she doesn't GET it because she can talk for hours and hours and hours on the phone with people and while it might be a little tiring for her it doesn't drain all her energy away like talking to people does for me. and ive tried to explain my social energy battery or whatever the fuck you want to call it so many times and she just never truly understands, i always get the impression she thinks i'm using it as an excuse or that i could push through it if i really tried but at a certain point i cant anymore and all i have left to offer is silence and tears because ive given all the energy available

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

we literally talked about the way her brother's wife influences him and the strain it's put on the sibling relationship, my mom's fears that i wont have anyone to rely on because i have so few family members, then we talked about my dad's history of bad girlfriends (dad and mom have been divorced since i was 1yo), then about my dad's failing to teach me mechanical skills growing up, then it was about her troubles with finding contractors and how my dad should be more helpful with that, and then it turned into her changing her mind and deciding that no my dad is actually not a helpful person at all and can't be relied on but also dont forget [my name] he's a good person deep down who loves you very much and i just cant cant cant cant cant respond anymore i dont have good hlepful words to give her after all this i've used up all the energy i had and now there's none left but ive also learned it's not enough to just say "mhm" over a nd over so i try despearately to come up with actual words but the energy sink is so high when i find the words they come out so weak and unconvincing but it's all i have

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 9

i try so hard but i think my mom still just doesn't fucking understand how draining it is for me to have a conversation for an hour and a half straight, especially when it contains multiple unpleasant or rough topics. i just woke up, the first thing i did was call my mom, it's been an hour and a half, the call just ended and i think she's pissed at me for my lackluster resposnes at the end but i'm so tired. i feel like i could crawl back in bed and sleep for another 6+ hours. my head hurts, i haven't eaten anything yet, and the last half an hour was just her saying "i'm gonna let you go now" and us doing the whole goodbye routine just for her to jump back into a new topic (or repeating one we've already talked about) for another 10 minutes before saying "i'm gonna let you go now" and starting the cycle again and i just dont know how to respond because i dont have the energy to keep repeating myself or have thoughtful responses when at this point i am so goddamn drained i just want to cry

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 5

white text on a black background: "i hate public speaking with a passion. if he wanted me to give this damn presentation then he needed to give me notice a MINIMUM of 5 business days in advance so i could prepare properly. and for my personal comfort... that's on the low end. not fucking pleased about this little manipulation he tried to pull. he just wants someone else to save his ass from his own poor time management and planning, and i dont get paid enough for that shit!"

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· May 5

white text on a black background: "very pissy because a representative from my department is supposed to give a presentation Thursday morning at 9am to the entirety of another department, but that representative is not yet chosen, and until last night the slideshow wasn't even made! right before my shift last night my boss asked if i could make the presentation. i said sure because i had the time, but was already not pleased at the short notice because he wanted the powerpoint by this morning. then after i message him to let him know i emailed it to him, he turns around and IMMEDIATELY asks me if i want to stay LATE on thursday morning JUST to GIVE this motherfucking presentation. He's lucky he didn't get an instant "Hell No" response because that was my instant reaction!!"

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 30

Coworker reciprocated with a squishy foam pusheen :D

A squishy foam pusheen cat on my desk at work, sitting right underneath a computer monitor. Pusheen is light grey in color and smiling cutely. It is sitting upright on its hind legs while using its front legs to hold a pink donut with pastel sprinkles on it.

Next to pusheen is a very tiny green duck figurine (about the size of a thumb nail) and an also very tiny figurine of a gnome ready to hit the beach. The gnome is wearing light blue hat and clothes; it has seashells on its hat, is wearing sunglasses shaped like stars, has its hair in two long white braids, is holding a white and red life preserver, and is wearing red flip flops.

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 25

THIS is the thumbnail yall chose???

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 21

Just bought this for a coworker who I think will really appreciate it, genuinely so excited to give it to him

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 11

pip's gitd

GITD picture of pip insertable from shop Alchemist Echidna (@alchemistechidna.bsky.social)

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 11

i feel like they all look really neat together 🖤

Atomic squishy from shop Alchemist Echidna (@alchemistechidna.bsky.social)

Size: medium
Firmness: super soft
Colors: matte black, metallic blue, and metallic silver

Poe squishy from shop Alchemist Echidna (@alchemistechidna.bsky.social)

Size: one size
Firmness: super soft
Colors: black, metallic blue, and metallic silver

Pip insertable from shop Alchemist Echidna (@alchemistechidna.bsky.social)

Size: medium
Firmness: super soft
Colors: metallic silver and matte greyish-white

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 6

Would love to see more pics of these 3 cuties if you get the chance! (is it just me or does the comfy in front have jazz cup vibes?? so fun!)

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Apr 1

EIGHT HOURS??? what did he just record the entire show and put it on youtube?? how is there that much to say 😭😂

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Mar 18

delle 🪐@galaxyanalogy· Mar 17

gonna have to recreate this picture now lol