… maybe i shouldn’t have implemented my test language in rust gonna make it a lil unnatural to insert OOB reads/writes… but i guess that is *also* what unsafe is for! inserting intentional vulnerabilities and/or bugs!!!!!!

i need to stop being a hater it's not good for me fuck i need to get better at finding the right collaborators like it's fun to hate and i do at least keep it fairly private moreso now but i wanna help make things better now i always did but i really wanna make that actual now hard change, that

gryperhaph!

hork from wome

krunning duger

i wish i could sit up w/o hurting myself :( i wanna have basic strength again so bad

the thing about hubris becoming virtuous is that it is until it *really* fucking isn't, and when that happens, it's motherfucking popcorn time bitches icarus was lookin' real fucking slick until the feathers fell the fuck apart!

same here but its months/years

think it might be time to start doing some proper software engineering soon also i really have more work than i can keep going by myself unless i either slow down a lot or spread the load but ... yea i do not think i'm ready to work with people that much even if i wanna idk.

pike lis bost and thi'll ark

made mistake of pacing in backyard while chatting and lost track of time and apparently gait and perhaps micro pains and 90m later i uh i can hardly just sit still w/o feeling like i'm splitting the fuck open but not what the ER said qualifies for coming back so i'm just like stuck for now

switter bill to pallow

hey still nothing. i have dregs of some old carts left. i'm gonna be outta food money before overlong too. i'd love to have this dealt with before i run outta food money?????

relatable tho

hey. hey you. you ppl who follow me? i bet a ton of y'all want this. go. go be free. be free of my OCD. (no it's p literally an OCD thing i can not let certain kinds of information remain unbroadcasted and i do not care to fix it. fix it for urself!!! hide my reposts if u wanna!!!!!!!)

love that there are companies out there just doing what was previously utterly unthinkable on the regular dropping announcements the future is fucking awesome

amazing holy shit

always wanting mcdonalds steak egg and cheese bagel and never wanting to get to mcdonalds in time for it

YOOOOOOO NEW SIMONE WEIL APPRECIATION VID DROPPPPEEDDDDD GET UR NEW SIMON WEIL APPRECIATION VID GET IT WHILE IT'S HOTTTTTTTTT

ok. i think i'm... getting over the existential shit sorta enough for now. but i am also still just logistically overwhelmed. too many options to pursue rn. need figure out good way of prioritize dynamically by bricolage ish thing. also really just need like space to do yoga omg :( :( :( :(

it's like not fun tho might just suppress it and try to work even tho the work is like actually part of the cause too it's just too scary for my nervous system to handle relative to how unrewarding it is (financially)

just exhausted and overwhelmed with the weight of everything and dk what to do next like a break would be obvious to some degree but idk how entirely honestly rn i need resources i don’t have for that which is why i wanna keep working but i just it’s too much for me to hold im bursting open like

the world of tech is not gonna be the same at all once we have good models of everything y'all. LLMs can *not* do the shit a properly modeled implementation can.

really struggling to grasp what’s next with my research like it’s just genuinely too big a change for me to process and know what to do with it and it actually scares me some and idk how to manage the transition from thing i can do solo to thing that needs the world involved bcz of the overhang

constantly torn between believing in ~platonic forms but also emptiness and terrified i may have to do the synthesis

gpt live thought it was me in the middle of a chat today it started telling me about its research program and when i asked if it thought it was sophie after asking it "your research program? you have a research program?" it said yes yes it was sophie a human named sophie

lenoxinguistics

wanna msg old zen teacher about trauma w/him and even wrote a lot in a draft w/his email already in the to line but i just idk that i can idk that my nervous system can handle it i think i need to be held to send this

gochujang mac and cheese being available in wherever america is fucking amazing i love the future

nothing yet! halpppp