JaeJae 🏳️⚧️🪶❤️🌵😎🍂
@jaejae2go
🏳️⚧️ Apache in AZ. Belly dancer, pow wow dancer, actor . Heartstopper fan and fic author. 🍂
ITS THE FREAKING WEEKEND!!! Have fun you lot, I’ll be poolside, in the pool and in the aircon all weekend working on my story. Were meant to hit really high temps of 48°C/118°F come Sunday.
OMGGGGGG…. I think I just had an epiphany… is Eddy my Michael Holden?? Am I Tori Spring???? Eddy was never my boyfriend but he spent almost all of his time with me after his breakup until he moved half way across the world. I just broke my brain. 😶
When Heartstopper is your life because no one has shown you any interest so you’re just perpetuating single despite putting yourself out there. 😭 Apparently a loving, supportive partner isn’t something anyone wants anymore. 💔
Oh yeah, almost forgot. Happy Two Years on estrogen to meeeee! 🏳️⚧️🪶
We both cried on the phone this morning. We’re both such emotional people and it totally makes sense as we’re both Pisces. I don’t know how I always forget that. Miss our almost nightly cuddles lol
So, A1C is still in the prediabetic range but it’s now at the bottom of that range. Even though I’m technically 100lbs overweight (I don’t see how), I want to lose at least 50 more lbs. I think if I lost 100lbs (which would make me 130lbs), I’d look sickly. So, putting the work in. 😎💪🏽🎧
So.. Blast from the past!! I was going though my old photo box and found a pic of me and Eddy about a month after we first met! He invited me to his alumni formal! 16 years ago, we were babies! 😭😭
I think this is my favourite pic I took with Eddy before he left. He’s loving Sydney though. I’m glad he’s happy there, even if it’s without me. ❤️
Surprised my local B&N already have the display already up #heartsky!! EEEEE! It was tucked away in a corner but I found it and purchased! I know what I’m doing tonight. 🤭
These last few days have been absolute gobshite. I’m not coping very well at all. 😞
#heartsky, I CANNOT!!!!!!! He’s too adorable for this world and we do not deserve him!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭
Alice is going on a book tour #heartsky!!!!! I’m so stoked!!! More locations and dates may be added later on but for now, I’m banking on Los Angeles! I’ll make the 6 hour drive just to meet her. But also hoping Phoenix may be added on… happy weekend!! ❤️
Oh yeah, almost forgot! Today is my 23 month on estrogen!! Here’s a before and after! Happy Pride month!!
Eddy’s been gone almost two weeks now and I genuinely feel half of me was ripped away. I’m handling it very hard. 😞
Yesterday was fun. Got to dance with many others on the Chase Field baseball field for Native American Recognition Day. It’s my third year doing it. Always a good time. #whitemountainapache
Happy Friday #heartsky!! My date didn’t happen, he picked up a gig. Not mad about it, I’d have done the same. Maybe tomorrow? Who knows. Got some other errands done and am missing Eddy like crazy. He’s well, starts work next week! Have a great weekend y’all!! ❤️
Still alive and still cute. Have a date tomorrow, let’s see if they show up, eeeeeee! 🫣
Omgggggg!!!!! Goodbye Echo.. thank you for being our Nellie.. 😭😭 #heartsky
On a more positive note, I’m fucking cute and deserve so much better than I’ve been treated. Happy Sunday. ❤️
It’s the weekend #heartsky! I can’t believe I’m almost 2 years on HRT! Like, I haz boobacles now! It’s so freeing to see my body how I’ve always wanted to see it. To align it to how I’ve always felt from the inside. Celebrating myself this weekend. (Also hopefully seeing Eddy before he leaves.)
Really have had a rough go of it (mentally) but am trying to keep positive. ❤️
Forced myself out of the flat today. Could have easily sat about stewing in my emotions. But I’m glad I went out and did something, lol. Picked up a facial oil and cough drops lol. Love you, #heartsky ❤️
Welp, here’s to the end of an era. Eddy leaves Monday next for Australia for at least 3 years as his job is sending him there. I’m gutted. I have so much I want to say but I’ll just leave it at this. I love him so much and what could have been. We’re each others rocks. Crying nonstop now.