jay .ᐟ

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jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Jun 25

I’ve had this video in my gallery for longer than I have been a connoisseur of deranged freakazoid Joker and honestly I don’t think any other video can top this one as my completely unconscious character work standpoint

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· May 27

As insane as this object is on principle, I am kind of enamored with how it would look like a t-rex dove head first into the pussy or ass

An ad for a 10-inch glow in the dark dildo that looks like a rainbow t-rex, for the low low price of $80.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· May 11

Puts four dudes in this contraption and watches them scuttle about my house like some sort of fucked up crab

I genuinely don't know how to describe this. It's some sort of 4-way chastity cage situation.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· May 9

Man I'm just doing whatever. My thesis on how the (human) Phantom Thieves go about basic chores (some extra thoughts are in the alt text)

Cooking Tier List

genuinely somehow capable of making chef boyardee taste gourmet 24/7: Joker, Sumire

gets a good grade in cooking: Makoto (do not be fooled by her place on the cleaning tier list, she's very messy when she cooks because she follows the recipe to a T. this means she puts every ingredient in its own little bowl and then mixes everything in separate bowls and then uses separate spoons and by the time she's done it's like a tornado blew through her kitchen but the food is good so she's winning at that)

gets a good grade in ordering food: Futaba, Ryuji (these two are SPOILED by Joker-grade cooking)

outranking everyone else in presentation and that's about as far as his culinary skills go: Yusuke (plus it takes him twice as long as the average person, because he has to stop and admire his work constantly)

made something incredible at 3 am and is chasing the high ever since: Ann, Haru

one of the others has posted him to r/CookingFails on at least one occassion: Akechi (in my heart he develops a knack for baking post-canon though)

Cleaning Tier List

cleans on the same day every week: Makoto, Sumire

cleans only when it gets capital b Bad: Ryuji, Yusuke (for Ryuji it's when his mom decides it's bad, for Yusuke it's when he can't find a certain brush)

(post-change of heart) cleans when the gods of executive function grace her: Futaba

does light upkeep, outsources the heavy stuff: Haru, Ann (Haru is much better at keeping her garden tidy than indoors)

one of the only people on this planet who can start cleaning, find something cool, and then go back to the task: Joker

Damn Bitch You Live Like This?: Akechi (again, this improves somewhat in post-canon)

Grocery Shopping Tier List

has a shopping list and adheres to it: Akechi, Makoto (can you guess which one of these two's shopping lists has perishables on it)

rawdogs memory itself (50/50 success rate): Joker, Haru

on the phone with their roommate the entire time because they know they're hopeless: Futaba, Ann

doesn't make a list, takes a mental screenshot of the fridge and pantry, immediately forgets it once inside the store: Ryuji, Sumire

banned from grocery shopping because he either returns empty-handed or with 5 live lobsters: Yusuke

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· May 6

Woman watching a video of herself and the title of the reaction video is “reacting to me lying…”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· May 3

What is make some noise even about

Brennan with his arm wrapped around Josh's shoulders, staring at him very intently, while Josh valitantly fights to remain deadpan. Brennan is saying, "It was making me cum just from the butt."

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 30

Image that says “An enlightened one is talking, listen and learn”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 29

My chudling Gumdrop the Plop they are 1 minute old and 3 apples tall

A Micropet in the self-care app Finch called Gumdrop the Plop. They're a small goopy marshmallow-like creature. The description says: Gumdrop is very curious and has many questions about the world around them. The question on their mind lately: what exactly is a plop, anyway?

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 28

Lunch of champions

A mango fruity gel snack pouch and a pink slush Alani energy drink.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 27

Clinging sooo tightly to this specific, easily missable piece of canon Joker characterization. Joker would never be a salaryman, you heard it here folks from Word of Cat. I truly don’t think Joker ever gets a normal conventional job as an adult

Joker and Mona observing a bar in Shinjuku on June 23rd. Mona, before this, made a comment about how Joker might end up like the drunk salarymen before them one day. He then says, with a smile, “Mmm… No, I can’t imagine you simply obeying the higher-ups!”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 25

Nearly 1k hours in this game and I somehow never noticed NUT ◇ BOY

A darts & music spot in Shinjuku in P5 called "NUT BOY"

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 23

Discord exchange between me and hag.

Me: Is a werewolf not always a werewolf within? Is the full moon a required variable in the equation? Don't ask me no stupid fucking question

Hag: WHY ARE WE TALKING ABOUT WEREWOLVES!!!!

Me: I don't know I'm horny

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 21

Never stop pantsing 99% of pantsers quit before they have a revelation on where the story is going

The meme of one man on the upper level of a mineshaft(?) hacking at the rocks with a pickaxe, while the man on the lower level is dejectedly walking away; on the other side of the wall are diamonds.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 20

I cannot stop saying "Often im investing in assets" and nobody knows what I'm talking about but I don't know how to explain this image

Tumblr exchange, reading:

pjackk: The Real Questionz: If a handsome ass twink that U had sex with 1 time & drove an hour 2 see & then brushed U off after text U again after 6 months, R u texting that mf back? Post your answer & rational below

toppestchap: Yea. Why not? Thats an asset right there

pjackk: Often im investing in assets

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 20

Twitter post edited to say “My problem is I always want a mango fruity gel snack or some bullshit”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 18

TO BE FAIR in the regular game it does not look like this at all; it’s most likely buckwheat. For some indefinable reason p5d decided to just make it what is either a rolled up towel or t-shirt. I have no idea why but it’s so so funny to me

Joker’s pillow in the third semester. It’s the color brown and not too flat.

Joker’s pillow in the summer. It’s blue-and-white striped and also not too flat.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 18

I will never forget the face I made when p5 dancing showed me Joker’s r/malelivingspaces situation in HD remastered quality for the first time

Oh god, where to begin. A picture of Joker’s bed from Persona 5 Dancing. It’s a thin mattress with one white flat sheet over it, held up on what appears to be three cartons or containers of some sort. There’s a lumpy blanket, visible black mold on the wall, and a blue t-shirt being used as a pillow. After seeing this, I honestly do believe Akechi’s whole acerbic “attic trash” thing is not without merit.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 15

Watching my friend play p5r for the first time and I could not keep a straight face during the pre-confidant scene where Yusuke is like actively struggling with a slump and opening up about it for the first time because I kept looking over at Joker serving for no fucking reason and crying

Joker Persona 5 in his summer Shujin uniform (a white polo shirt and red-and-black plaid trousers), standing in front of the Leblanc bar with his hip cocked to the left side and his left hand in his pocket. It's hard to describe why this is such a cunty ass pose to me.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 14

Post from r/Physics titled "What to do if I have theories?" with the body text "I contacted a college and they ignored me"

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 13

Another graphic depictions of violence fic from me? How original. This one's for @xxmigrainequeenxx.bsky.social! Thank you so much for infecting me with this idea. I heard "wound fingering" and nearly blacked out at work. Enjoy! 🔗 archiveofourown.org/works/83021741 #akeshu #shuake #jjw

An AO3 fic titled "the tip of your knife, a thousand satellites" by me, lumensd.

The summary reads:

"You want me to hurt you because nobody else will, and it'll fulfill two of your needs at once," Akechi cuts him off, matter-of-fact. "Two contradictory needs."

Akira swallows thickly. He simply nods.

The boy who killed him—in his own mind, in a parallel universe, in a world Yaldabaoth wrung red and drowned in his ichor—takes a step back. He says, "I don't think I will ever understand you, Akira," in a low voice, and then he plunges his serrated blade into Akira's thigh.

(Akira is starved for touch, touch of any kind. Some forms of human contact are easier to ask for than others.)

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 12

An "I will be there no matter what" sports quote meme

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 11

My immediate thought

Tumblr post from a deactivated account that says "good boy but in the way you praise a hunting dog after you have it gore something"

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 10

Trying to do writing research on Reddit and accidentally stumbling across Akira Kurusu's side account

Post from r/AskReddit titled "People that have survived being stabbed/impaled, what did it feel like?" and the comment I've highlighted reads "Does gay sex count?"

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 10

Happy wip whateverthefuckday. Every day is wip wednesday when you're writing violent freak shit. I'm writing violent freak shit. It's making me regen SP over time

"You want me to hurt you because nobody else will, and it'll fulfill two of your needs at once," Akechi cuts him off, calmly. "Two contradictory needs."

*The need for pain to feel alive, and the need for closeness to a boy who killed me, in a world where everyone's happiness seems to have come before our own.* He wonders what two needs Akechi's thinking of. He simply nods.

The boy who killed him—in his own mind, in a parallel universe, in a world Yaldabaoth wrung red and drowned with his ichor—takes a step back. He says, "I don't think I will ever understand you, Akira," in a low voice, and then he plunges his serrated blade into Akira's thigh.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 9

April is National Poetry Month! :] In honor of that, here are my two favorite free verse poems I’ve written about akeshuake. You can find the full piece they’re from here ^^ archiveofourown.org/works/67828326

i wondered if this was the closest i'd ever get to your heart,

the two places i get to see golden light split your pretty face apart.

i wondered if i'm the only one who's ever built this microcosm for you and i,

where i fight myself to not reach out and touch you, and you pretend you haven't drowned in my eyes.

i wondered that if i was no longer part of this world, would this be where you laid your heart to rest?

or would you simply leave the money on the table and exit stage left?

in the bright and beautiful world where everyone gets what they want, i merely asked for you.

the impossibly strange and unfamiliar world, the cold and too-forgiving world—the world where you're whole again, standing in my field of view.

i admit it's thrilling—two dreamless rivals who've slipped through the cracks, fallen into the crevice world eaters have no power over, carved out the framework of a rebellion there—

—and still i can't help but wonder if you'd much rather leave me bleeding out on the thoroughfare.

in this light, you are unreadable; you keep me at arm's length, you don't let me brush against your coat;

and i'm still the coward who can only keep all of this in the back of his throat.

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 7

Good morning. Another Jay’s mom chronicle

A Discord message from me with the caption “My mom texts like a JRPG protagonist talks” and the attached image is an iMessage screenshot showing my mom just responding “Okay” to three separate things. It’s cut off, but you can see my paragraph messages between each “Okay”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 6

Tumblr post that says “Everything is about gay sex especially if it isn't about gay sex because if it isn't about gay sex its about the absence of gay sex and the absence of something is only the shadow of its presence. So.”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Apr 6

Me writing any fight scene

A meme of that time the sky in NYC was yellowish orange from the Canadian wildfires, with the caption “how can I make this about me” with the devil emoji next to it, but the “me” is replaced with “sex”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Mar 31

I love browsing r/askgaybros because they’re not afraid to ask the real questions

A Reddit post with 342 upvotes and 150 comments titled “Are tops even necessary?”

jay .ᐟ@lulumen· Mar 29