PTSD Barnum
@sirlolsworthy
Extreme autism and adhd hellfire brain. The box marked 'gender' is empty, singer/songwriter/composer/producer, winner of best 9/11 joke
Gonna get this from Reanimation off In Verses tattooed on me as well I've decided. Maybe on my thigh
Oh no I think I have covid :( just paid 30 bucks for this Parma at Abbey Road and I cant taste ANYTHING
I know he's seen me in the crowd at every show (my look is pretty distinctive lol), I'm going to be sure to be right on the barrier in the middle at Brisbane tonight
How close I got to the boys in Sydney. Ian was singing directly to me, eyes locked, for a full minute during Opal when I was a complete mess just wracked with sobs #Karnivool #InVerses #tour
Will redo it but I'll splint it good til the morning unless the pain becomes unbearable (I have successfully done this twice before the ED docs were very impressed)
Not bad for a first proper run in months, 11km/hr average. Oh boy will I be sore in two days time
if you think I can't eat all this by myself considering what I look like you be would be wrong
I can be your bookish soft enby or ur jacked up twink (apparently). AFABs don't generally get the vee cut, prominent serratus muscles and six pack (I do have one just can't see it there) unless their body fat is less than 12-14% which uhh I didn't try for that it's disease related but yeah
I contain multitudes also holy hell that insane definition happened SO faat
When life needs you that's capitalism tell it to fuck off! I literally wrote a Meanjin article about this shit being what would drive the next global pandemic!! In July of 2019 I might add
FUCK ME DEAD GOOGLE WE HAVE HAD A LIFETIME OF BEING 'OTHERED' ALREADY
I see happy people and I just wish them nothing but misery because I am dead inside. I have nothing left to give. Literally. Trigger warning for these pictures but they tell you just how fucking dire my situation is - I was 44kg the other day and was hospitalised for respiratory syncytial virus.
Size 22 high rise skinny jeans lmao they won't stay up properly without a belt
Lol this is an XS. I don't even know how much (little) I weigh now but it's gotta be less than 47kg and I'm 169cm - got to a max of 172cm from spine relaxing out after being confined to bed for a couple of weeks in hospital one time, the physio measured me. Anyway that's a spicy BMI :/
Never realised just how long my legs are until I got really skinny (yes unhealthy I know not on purpose). Always had that slim-thick going on which hid it. I look like a ballerina now
Got back into running for my mental and physical health (I have been SO sick, AGAIN), and it's already paying off after only a week check out those muscles. Also that top is padded they're not that big lol
The face of someone who just scored a bunch of designer gear that's possibly over a grand in resale value (not the coat this is only 130 rrp new and I'm keeping it)
Here's my version from before that song was released. To be fair this is much older and I'm far better now
I've written two songs about being trapped by exactly this feeling (Blood Sample and Mausoleum) but I don't think I wrote about it half so well as my boy Matt Flood because fucking ouch
These are some real 'I'm here to kick your ass' shoes that make me a bit over 5'10 (confirmed standing next to someone who is 6' with an extra inch from their shoes)
I'm definitely going to end up hating at least something in this list BUT it's all stuff I greatly enjoy & am v good at so cross your fingers for me that I can do it, keep enjoying it and make some sweet cash monies from it. Catch me on insta for the first one @ www.instagram.com/queenofsword...
Who the fuck gives never worn handmade Korean boots to an op shop?!