“try & watch a horror film from the point of view of the monster. imagine, every man shrieks at the sight of you…you didn’t know your name until they named you…didn’t know your hunger was so unclean. so you learned to grow in the dark as darkness grew in you.” Be shameless today and everyday!

And now I can get to my annual summer tradition of reading a thicc boy (because the summer is the only time I really have to read something without many interruptions). Last year’s was Eleanor Catton’s The Luminaries. Bonus points if you can guess which 20th century classic this is 🤓

This was waiting for me at the library when I got back. Like all the others, it was super cute! Have a great weekend, guys!

“I didn't think this feeling, or this behavior was sick—at least, no more sick than the way most other people were. Everyone I'd ever met, they were all sick. I just had more self-awareness, and a greater sense of what I could do to get that joy in my soul.”

“The difference between remembering and imagining is very small” I just got back from my trip and I barely know what day it is (until opening this app, of course 😉). Have a great one guys! 😘

It may no longer be fcf, but the cock still kinda fat I guess? Have a great weekend, guys!

I’ve barely had a chance to read or be naked since I started my trip, which makes me think of my naked bloomfs even more. Naked hugs from Cusco!

“What you refuse to see is how recent is your hold here, that the land was inhabited long before you and your kind ever arrived, with your crosses and your prayers. You will never understand how the land remembers, how deep the roots grow”

“The human body is our fundamental method of existing in and relating to this world we live in.”

“There is so much randomness to youth. The person assigned to share your room becomes your friend, the girl you pass on your way out the door becomes your wife, and from these random encounters our entire lives are built”

“What is behind me still remains ahead of me.” This probably has the coolest structure I’ve come across in a novel. A masterpiece! 🙇‍♂️

“freedom is not first and foremost an aesthetic and symbolic issue, but a material and practical one. That freedom has a price.”

“In the end, that's all accepted history is, anyway: imagination, rationalized.”

“Being a person will always involve metaphysics whether we know it or not…and AI has no metaphysics…it might know about metaphysics, it can be told about metaphysics, but a machine will never have a metaphysic. It has no mystery.”

“Westerns are the fairy tales gringos tell themselves to assure the triumph of bureaucratic reason over the excesses of individual will; they are the most effective vehicle for the dissemination of productivity culture in a country whose other founding myth is respect for individual freedoms.”

"Am I to live my life watching everyone else do the living?…I have to have something to show at the end of this life. If I'm for hell, then I deserve a love that was worth it" I responded to this similarly to when I read Brokeback Mountain as a teenager 🥺

Happy FCF, everyone! I’ve been in a bit of a reading slump so I thought I’d post this instead. A buddy suggested my next account be named *loads* of reading, so here’s the first load to start the weekend 😜

"Our lives are always illuminated by the lives of others."

“Asked what love is, some will say it is nothing but a wind whispering among the roses and then dying down. But often it is like an unbreakable seal that holds for a lifetime, until death. God created it of many different kinds and has seen it endure or perish”

Happy hump day! In the tradition of reading novels by writers from countries I’ll soon visit, I picked up Vargas Llosa’s last novel. This is my 2nd novel by him and I remain unimpressed. Any recommendations of Peruvian writers I should check out?

“Heroic dreams are the consolation of the unhappy.” Hubby has been in Türkiye this past week, and I’ve been there with him in spirit 🤓

Reading about nudism while practicing nudism at Burwell was a pretty solid way of spending the long weekend! 😋

“I repeat and recall and relive and retell and redress because childhood lasts, youth lasts, our childhood and youth constitute a future that starts over constantly, it is an ongoing process…the body remembers and suffers and thinks, the body knows, it is not just the mind.”

“Faith…is not a matter of believing something, but believing that somehow things could be different; in the same way, music was not the articulation of some better part of ourselves, or a reference to some notion of a better world, but a disguising of the fact of our irredeemable selves”

This may look unrelated to reading, but I listened to half an audiobook on this hike 😜 Have a great Friday, guys! (And yes, it was cold and windy. Felt like 4 degrees. FCF is a state of mind 😌)

“it's not as if the beast was there in front of me, or even behind me. No, it was all around me, and to such an extent that it's taken me years to realize that I was living inside it, that I was perhaps even born inside it.” A great reflection on how individuals navigate national collective guilt 🙌

“sure i've memorized every word for faggot & nearly all their origins are plural & bound together with twine…sure i've eaten directly from the hand of a man who taught me the simplest words, gestures of thirst & begging.” Guess I am a faggot: I want be bound, begging, & surrounded by other faggots.

“Can you be happy when you're missing someone?…Of course I can. It's not just me here. There are others to do the missing with. We wait…Everything is easier when I rinse vegetables in a sink. When I chop and slice and think of the past. It's what people have always done when they missed someone.”

So nice to be back home in Norway visiting my parents, but won’t get to be naked for a while 🥲. But happy International Workers’ Day though!

“Love is a purpose, a plan, an execution. Love is loud, love is quiet, a two-person symphony orchestra. Love is taking two unfinished puzzles, pouring the remaining pieces into the same box, and completing a single picture.”