abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail

@thislivingdeath

Washed-up writer at...28 TT Fat, tired, queer, disabled, disaster. Fan of lit mags, ace attorney, fe3h, hq, mutual aid and communal care. Fuck genocides, fuck fascism, fuck colonialism.

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abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 16d

This was another fun one for #feartscuffle. TW: some implied dubcon bc Felix is a prisoner of war delivered to Claude to do with as he wishes uwu. Claude deserves a nice toy <3 If the note on the floor isn't readable, it says, "Claude-- For services rendered. LYLAS, El." (CF route w/Claude assist)

Monochrome Claude von Reigan crouches next to monochrome, scowling Felix Fraldarius. Claude is holding a paddle, and Felix is bound in golden rope. They are in Claude's colorful bedroom, with many golden, green, and red details. A note lays on the floor between them, reading, "Claude, For services rendered. LYLAS, El."

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 16d

This was a favorite piece for #feartscuffle. I put the fe3h characters into Ace Attorney 4. Bc in my mind, sylvix is emo klapollo. I also think it's so fucking funny that the G works for Klavier and Sylvain.

In the Ace Attorney courtroom, there is a showdown between Apollo-coded Felix Fraldarius and Klavier-coded Sylvain Gautier. Annette is off to the side, dressed as Trucy, and Ingrid, dressed as Ema, is almost being slapped in the face with Sylvain's "Objection!" pose.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 17d

"Don't treat me like a pawn when I'm the queen (of brigid)" another work from #feartscuffle, some claudexpetra. I clearly enjoy doms forcing their thumbs into their subs mouths lolllll. I should have posted this for Claude's birthday, butttt i forgor

NSFW portrait of Claude and Petra from fire emblem three houses. Petra is in Claude's lap, looking down at him imperiously, thrusting her thumb between his lips. Claude is looking up at Petra with wide eyes, eagerly sucking on her thumb. They both have their tits out. In the background, there are blurry maps and papers on a conference table, as if they were interrupted by sex in the middle of a war council.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 18d

Trying out working on backgrounds and poses lately, so I finished up this sketch of #TifaLockhart (based on @trueref.bsky.social july reference <3) beckoning the viewer into a beautiful bar (based on Le Bar Marjorelle in Marrakech, not including the top border or the barstool). Bit wobbly, but cute!

Tifa from final fantasy 7 perched on a barstool, beckoning the viewer over. The background is a beautiful bar with colorful bottles and plenty of light sources reflecting off of the floor, the bottles, and the stucco walls.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 21d

Someone once said burn my dread babe #shuake

Portrait of Akechi Goro, lined in teal blue. His lines are very sharp. He is wearing a brown sweater vest with a blue and white deconstructed argyle pattern. He has golden brown eyes with exaggerated eyelashes and a spiral pupil. He has a bunch of tattoos, including a butterfly flight, two smoking guns on his chest, "NO. X" in stamped letters, a Robin Hood hat, a playing card with Joker's glasses and some blood, loki's horns, and two quotation marks curled in on each other. The background is periwinkle with a crimson, bloodlike splash of paint.

Portrait of Ren Amamiya from Persona 5 Royale, lined in red. They are wearing alt clothing, a crop tank with one half white and one half black, and a pair of jeans that is one half medium wash and one half light wash. They are wearing glasses that appear to be made from stained glass, and they are covered in tattoos. Tattoos include a lobster, a ufo, chess pieces, script across their ribs reading "Beautiful Princess Disorder," a cup of Leblanc coffee, Jack Frost, Ryuji saying "For Real?!", sushi, and a skull on his neck. The background is a simple graphic, almost resembling stained glass, that includes a depiction of a gun going off on one side of his head and a spurt of blood going out of Joker's head.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 22d

Yeah. There's more #feartscuffle. This one I'm a bit unsatisfied with bc byleth came out looking a bit flat, buuuuuut any excuse to put dimitri in a situation.

Byleth Eisner is wearing a black bra and Blaiddyd-blue panties, kneeling beside a totally nude Dimitri Blaiddyd in the ruined Garrag Mech cathedral. She has a placid expression on her face as she pushes her fingers into his mouth. Dimitri is surrounded by a Silence spell, and he is eagerly swallowing down her fingers, clearly searching her expression for a sign that she is pleased.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 23d

I decided to start making a little comic series with her in it and see where it goes. Here's the first installment:

Panel 1: A glimpse at the form Chastity filled out for the summer. It lists her name, Chastity; her age, 20; and her allergies, losers. Text: "I told myself that I would put myself out there this summer."
Panel 2: A top-down view of the bag Chastity has packed for the summer. It is a somewhat ratty, dark blue duffel bag and the white text on the side implies that it is standard issue for the cheer team from Avery High School. Inside the bag are some folded clothes, a flower power makeup bag, and a hairbrush. On the side of the bag are a floppy bra and a package of facial masks. Text: "Do something new. Something uncomfortable."
Panel 3: Portrait of an older Asian woman with grey-blue hair, an unimpressed expression, a grey cardigan, a purple turtleneck, and half-moon glasses. In Chastity's handwriting, there are little notes about the woman. (Counterclockwise, starting from upper left corner): "Debra Kim, LCW," "Lowkey my hero," "Loudest silence ever recorded," "Most drab cardis in the game," "Takes no prisoners," "Stone cold cunt." Text: Debra was always telling me that I needed to experience friction in useful ways. Not just. Feeding an addiction to pointless conflict.
Panel 4: A red car, implied to be the car Chastity was in on the previous page, drives by a weathered wooden sign with "Camp Baywater" painted somewhat ominously in red. Text: "So here was my friction:"

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 24d

Baby you're a haunted house is a great song for so many fe3h ships. I'm choosing to use it for sylvix purposes, but just know I probably agree if you think it could be appropriate for others.

Screenshot of genius lyrics page of Gerard Way's Baby I'm a Haunted House.
Lyrics:
"[Bridge]
I'll be the only one who likes the things you do
I'll be the ghost inside your head when we are through
Sometimes you scare me, but I'll come around to you
I'll say hello, hello, hello
I'll find a way to scare you too"

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· 25d

Thought about joining a cool horror rp discord server but got anxious about not being able to meet the activity requirements. This is the OC I was going to use for it, a "reformed" mean girl who realized she was gay in college and wanted to become a camp counselor at the horror camp bc +

A tall, mid-20s woman with curly pink hair tied in a tall ponytail. She has made her white, bland camp counselor polo into a crop top using a scrunchie, and she's wearing those silky athletic shorts in a navy color. She also has a cute little camp scarf tied under the collar of her polo.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jul 8

Yeah I have more #feartsuffle bc ofc I do. And I'm a slow poster so you know I'll be milking this for like the rest of the year. Have some #sylvix nsfw

Felix Fraldarius is holding a chubby, freckled Sylvain up in the garreg machine greenhouse, which is filled with mushrooms and trees and flowers, including one that appears to be releasing some kind of sex pollen. Sylvain has his hand on Felix's cheek, and Felix is looking away, scowling. (Shyly)

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jul 4

I know what you're thinking, abigail will you be posting #feartscuffle pieces forever? Maybe. Shut up. People had good ideas. Here's an OC x Petra piece that I made about selkies. Artistic nudity jumpscare.

A pale, almost pearlescent nude figure rises from the sea, keeping hold of her silvery mottled sealskin while Petra from fire emblem three houses looks on in shock. Petra is dressed in a lovely green sarong and burnt gold off the shoulder bikini top. In the background, seals play in the calm, clear blue waters of the cove.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jul 3

Part of a #feartscuffle collab where i did the art for a verrrrry sexy sylvix fic (i will link it in the comments, I'm a disorganized poster, I fear). My first time really playing with perspective, and I enjoyed the challenge!!

Felix Fraldarius is staring down at the viewer with a smirk. His knee is extended as though offering it for...friction for the viewer. He is wearing a blue sleeveless gambeson and brown leather pants with an intricately embroidered belt.

Sylvain Gautier is desperately staring up at the viewer (presumed to be Felix) while sucking on the gloved thumb of Felix's arm. In the background is Felix's bedroom with a four poster bed, a stonework floor, and a roaring fire.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jul 1

This was one of the first pieces I did for #feartscuffle, and truly just one of my faves of the whole event. It's a P5R-inspired All-Out-Attack endscreen for Felix Fraldarius. And it just looks so cool and funnnn!!!! <3

A Persona 5 style end of combat screen, with Felix Fraldarius stabbing a sword into the ground. A shadow behind him implies that he leapt into the air and slammed back into the ground to do this. He is wearing a simple turtleneck that has been folded up to act simultaneously as a mask. In the background, a massive shield with the Fraldarius crest stands with a ribbon around it that has written in Old English letters, "Let's Spar."

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 30

My #feartscuffle thread continues, this time with a portrait of a pathetic (/fond) Sylvain looking over his shoulder at Bernadetta, hoping to get wrecked. This was part of a larger comic, but I really enjoyed this panel specifically. Probably bc of the socks icl.

Sylvain from fire emblem three houses is standing in an abstract room of an inn, facing away from the camera to display his cute butt. He's looking longingly--needily, even--over his shoulder at the viewer. He has one knee up on the bed, and the only thing he's wearing are a pair of forest green socks.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 30

Continuing posting my favorite #fescuffle pieces. This was a detective AU for Yuri (with a background Bernadetta) strongly inspired by Miss Fischer's Murder Mysteries.

Yuri from fire emblem three houses is laid out on a motel bed, wearing flapper-esque attire and holding a cute, pearl-enamel pistol. In the background, Bernadetta is peering out of the motel windows anxiously, as if looking out for someone.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 29

Sometimes you see something on social media that r e q u i r e s art to be made.

Yuri from fire emblem three houses, leaning on a textured concrete wall. They're wearing a tight beige shirt that says Bad Boy Club that rides up a little to show off their stomach and a maxi khaki cargo skirt loosely belted with a beautiful red paisley-esque scarf.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 28

I've decided to post my #fescuffle works. Or at least the ones I like the most <3 This is fat Constance <3 I love drawing my fellow fat people, especially when they're looking as hot as she is!!

Fat Constance from fire emblem three houses in a black corset with black and silver brocade on the side panels and a cute little black bow in the center. One strap is dangling off of her arm, and her boobs are noticeably pushed up. In the background is a statue of adult Sothis in a little alcove.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 28

The eldritch cow lord looks kind of pissed you spotted her.

A bright blue cow with neon green, light-radiating tumors on its body and a blanket over its back depicting a giant cow rampaging against some humans. It's in a cave with symbols that not-so-surreptitiously spell out "cow" drawn in chalk on the wall. The green glow of its tumors is cast across the walls of the cave.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 24

I actually finished my first Commission today! Made a gender-affirming saint portrait for a friend who wanted his depiction to include one of his most iconic makeup looks <3

A figure is being struck by a charging bolt of lightning, which illuminates him from behind. He is gazing up at the lightning and reaching up to touch it. He has long, luscious green hair, and a silver lightning-inspired makeup look. Around his chest are branches as if from a crown of thorns to denote his desired top-surgery scars.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 22

Trying comms for the first time! Support a disabled artist as she tries his best to make any money at all <3 Kofi wouldn't let me upload images (*eye twitches*), so here are the examples of what I'm offering: saint icon portraits, faux campy book covers, and tarot cards! ko-fi.com/thislivingde...

Saintly portrait of Mia Fey in an earthy palette. She is cradling her glowing magatama in one hand, wearing Lana Skye's scarf, and making a saintly gesture with her other hand.

A faux book cover featuring a naked Sylvain Gautier and clothed but debauched Felix Fraldarius clutching each other and almost kissing. There is a background of a lush valley and mountains in the distance. The book title is "A Gentle Feuding," and there is a logline that says "When the nation of Sreng sends back the captive heir of Gautier, Duke Fraldarius is eager to reconnect with his old friend. However, he could not have expected the infuriating man who appears--or the lengths Felix would go to possess him..."

This is a tarot card featuring someone's OCs. The central figure has their hands over their mouth, tears in their eyes, and a horrified expression on their face. They are drawn in a palette of purples and blues, including a glowing teal that reflects from their tears onto their hands. In the background, there is a moon split in two. One side features a figure mostly in black, with only white lighting from the moon discerning their features. They hold a purple-coated knife. On the other side, there is a figure mostly in haloed in white, with shadows in black encroaching. The shield they hold glows the same teal as the foreground character's tears. "The Moon" is written down the side in white lettering outlined in gold.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Jun 1

Valid lol. Codes are rough. Last suggestion, I promise, but maybe shorthand? It's archaic/niche enough that most people don't know it, and while someone could translate it, it would probably be difficult, especially if they then had to translate the language you were using shorthand to write in

Graph of shorthand symbols for different consonants and vowels

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· May 21

My preview for T H E NSFW Sylvix Zine of all time, @nsfwsylvixzine.bsky.social What are these sexy, sexy implements? Idk dude, guess you'll just have to find out.

Ellipsus preview with the quote,

"I remember being thrown off Lady after some heavy-weight thug launched himself at us," Sylvain grumbled, unable to stop himself from squirming against his bindings--a move Felix punished with a sharp pinch to his hip. "Ow…And then I was sure it was curtains for yours truly, but…here I am, fine." He glanced down at his angry erection and rope scratches around his wrists. "Well. I woke up fine."

Felix followed his gaze, and his eyes lingered over Sylvain's leaking dick. To Sylvain's horror, Felix reached out and traced a (very sensitive!) vein on the side of his dick.

"So the Archbishop was right," he muttered, barely loud enough to be heard by Sylvain. Then he locked eyes with Sylvain. His next words were imperious, sending a shiver down Sylvain's spine. "You'll be released from these ropes for the next few days, until the Archbishop comes to properly test that you are who you say you are. Until then, we have other implements to keep you in line."

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· May 15

They posted a new picture of a favorite cat at an animal shelter near my partner, so we're celebrating her beauty.

Fat white cat with gray patches around ears, face, and back. Text reads, "The Star of the Show: Wylie. I'm a two-year-old kitty ready to find my loving forever home. I'm a sweet girl who enjoys playing with toys and snacking on tasty treats. I have a big personality that is sure to steal your heart!"

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Apr 30

Some art i made for my partner of a custom creature for them in its natural habitat! (It's big enough for them to ride)

A giant blue dragonfly on top of a rock. It is covered in feathery hairs and has electronic panels indicated on its body. The background is several lush green hills surrounding a slate blue, wind-rippling lake. There is a marble or limestone carved stone giant sitting on a hill. It is half-covered in moss and has light green runic markings on it. On the other side of the lake, there is a stone lighthouse with a dinky pier, a set of stairs leading from the lakeshore up the highest hill, and a small stone cottage with a horse tied up outside. The sky is pre-stormy, with dark clouds gathering.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 26

excerpt from an old piece about harm ocd

Document reading, "I have always wanted to be a good person. I was rewarded for good behavior as a child. I saw what "incorrect" behavior wrought. The true test of integrity is what you are doing when nobody is watching. Someone is always watching. I am always watching.
Mine is the problem of perception, the problem of self. Moral scrupulosity. The word scrupulosity is like an unfurling head of lettuce, almost snapping as someone pulls leaf away from leaf. The syllables pop, and I like the way they taste on my tongue, like carbonation. Like carbonation, it lingers on the tongue. The popping turns into a soft buzzing, the same buzzing that I feel as I wake, that develops as the day wears on. Its true form revealed."

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 20

Played the game Tangle Tower, which was fun (i have some follow-up questions about things that were left unanswered, but overall a really great mystery) and was inspired to try the art style of the games for myself. So enjoy the clown ever <3

Character in the style of Tangle Tower, which is cartoonish and outlined in white. Figure with red curly hair, pale brown skin, a bright red clown nose, a yellow turtleneck tucked into medium wash jeans. They are standing in a purple big-top circus tent.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 17

Hm. True.

Tsukishima Kei from Haikyuu smiles sheepishly

Leon Strohl from Metaphor grins confidently.

Klavier Gavin from Ace Attorney smiles suavely

Kristoph Gavin from Ace Attorney smiles mysteriously.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 14

Quote and let people assign you a pokemon based on your vibes (The art is by @achtungziggy.bsky.social)

Screenshot of an item called Fatboy Fucker Hat. It is 35 dollars, and it is sold out. There is a black version and a white version, both with the words Fatboy Fucker on them.

A beautiful drawing of a punk/goth/emo fat white person on a lime green background. He has choppy, shoulder length emerald hair with a few strands of bleach blond at the front. She is scowling at the viewer. Her eyes are also emerald and large, with complicated shadows and a star highlight. He is wearing emerald eyeshadow and lipstick, and he has various accessories, including a nose ring, a skull hair jewelry piece, an earring, and some tattoos.

A photo of the back of a laptop with stickers on it. Stickers relate to accessibility, fatness, fairies, tarot, knitting, dogs, and frogs. The background is embarrassingly messy.

A picture of an oikawa plush upside down with his head stuck in a lampshade.

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 11

Since Zieg got me into Pokémon, I've been making charts for different fictional characters (and our friends, lmk if you want one). Can you guess which Haikyuu character this represents?

A table of pokemon types with one pokemon per type. From left to right, top to bottom: Normal - Furfrou in Reine form, Fire - Ninetales, Water - Vaporeon, Grass - Lurantis, Electric - Arctozolt, Ice - Articuno, Fighting - Quaquaval, Poison - Roserade, Ground - Marshtomp, Flying - Swanna, Psychic - Meowstic, Bug - Butterfree, Rock - Stakataka, Ghost - Honedge, Dragon - Walking Wake, Dark - Chien-Pao, Steel - Celesteela, Fairy - Primarinna

abbi ☆ marcel ☆ abigail@thislivingdeath· Mar 9

I had professional help from @achtungziggy.bsky.social to compile my perfect team, purely based on the ones I love the most.