vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️

@vivwoof

25yo // she/her/it // HRT: 30/12/24 Just a lil gay ace (and aro maybe) lynx girl // I'm mentally ill Schizotypal, CPTSD, BPD I'll vent from time to time // TW: self-harm I'm an error in this reality

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vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· 23d

Aren't they so cute? :3 Source: www.tumblr.com/wingedwolfst...

Screenshot of my home screen with an artwork as my wallpaper depicting N holding a sleepy Uzi in her room wearing pajamas, from the show Murder Drones.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· 24d

I mean come on this is really cool. I don't need it (I have a bag like this) but I want it! :333

Satchel in style of Uzi from the show Murder Drones.
It looks so fucking cool!

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· 25d

Behold, the clit. (Sorry it's blurry, my camera wouldn't focus at all)

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· 25d

Here you go :3

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 13

Nowadays it's pretty clear they are indeed different mental illnesses. This graph shows generally the differences and similarities. This article also explains the key differences between these two : psychcentral.com/ptsd/how-pts...

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 10

thank you

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 6

Yeah, that fits.

Dearest, beloved Gangle... You must have a lot on your mind. So many feelings inside that it drains your energy. You feel them so strongly, and they may even contradict each other. You keep them to yourself though; these are your own problems, and you don't want to rope anyone else into them. You're quiet, but you have so much to say. So much to share. So much to express. It's scary to imagine yourself voicing all of that, so you instead focus on more quiet ways of getting those feelings out. Creativity flows through your veins, and if you can't create something, it's an agony like no other. You have so many doubts despite your passion. You've failed before and who's to say you won't fail at the things you desperately want to do? What if people hate you for it? It's safer to just keep your dreams as dreams. You're good at imagining things anyway. Society and people expect so much out of you, and the pressure is near paralyzing. The way you think and see things is unique and can oftentimes come off as awkward or maybe alienating. It's not your fault, but it certainly feels like it is when compared to other people your age or younger. You feel like a puzzle with lost pieces. Or maybe you're a factory error that never had the right pieces to begin with. Logically, this isn't true, but the pain may easily override logic sometimes. Naturally you hide this by creating a persona of sorts. You act and maybe even dress the part of playing a "normal" person. It gets you through the day, but when you drop the act, you're exhausted and unable to do the things you love. You don't fake your care for others though. You consider other people's feelings and try your best to make sure they don’t feel alone. There are ways to balance masking while also maintaining your authenticity, it takes baby steps and strength that you'd be surprised you have inside. Your loved ones cherish who you really are, despite what you think. You have to choose to love yourself. Even if it doesn't make se…

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 5

TW: self-harm, wounds, cuts, blood WARNING: PICTURES OF SELF INFLICTED CUTS I have a need to show it, idk why. It's from last night. Pls don't look at it.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 4

TW: heavy self-harm, cutting

i've cut the most today and it feels amazing, like one side of my lower arm has so many cuts it looks beautiful. the pain is amazing, blood looks nicely red and some cuts did get a bit deeper. I've tried a boxcutter i bought today and i was kinda disappointed. it's not as sharp as a razor blade but maybe I used it a bit wrong. I've seen so many photos from people with big and wide cuts which look hella cool and wanted to try but I guess I have to train it a bit. boxcutters are great for easier handling tho.

overall tonight's cutting was nice. can't wait to use my whole arms after switching to E injections :3

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jul 4

I made a comment under the music video and want to share it here as well

When i first saw the show i immediately clinged to Ragatha bc she was exactly like me. Traumatic childhood, emotionally abusive mom which turned me into a mom friend, or also called BPD in my case and in a lot of other people with BPD. I only saw one purpose in my life and that was being for those i care and love and that was my only wish in life, no life goals, no aspirations, i had no dream job, i wanted nothing in my life than to be there for others. I only was someone with others, and nobody when I'm alone, like a husk, conpletely empty. I felt the exact same pain Ragatha felt through the show. With time and the show came closer to its end, i changed dramatically. I don't feel like a mom friend anymore. I don't have any friends in that regard bc of more traumatic incidents with people i thought i could trust and loved them but i was wrong and hurt me so much, i just wanted to be alone with no one around me, completely isolated. I couldn't relate to ragatha that much anymore but i still know how it feels and the pain that builds up inside and I'm really empathetic and sympathetic to Ragatha and wished I could be that one friend for her that appreciates her and feel seen and know exactly what she feels and what she needs. She's one of my favourite fictional characters of all time. I wish i could just hug her.

This song is such a banger, thank you for making and sharing it with everyone here.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 28

Some furry art I saw while I was outside :3

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 28

I took it again and it's more right this time :3

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 28

*sorry I forgot to add my result* I mean, yeah it checks out. I'm more 35 mentally but it's good enough.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 26

lmao

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 26

interesting www.quotev.com/quiz/1743454...

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 22

I'm like a fusion of Gangle and Kinger

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 21

Put daisy as my phone wallpaper Isn't she lovely? 🎨 @/salayley.bsky.social

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 20

It's funny bc if I did that like three months ago or earlier, Ragatha would be one of the tops bc we have similar traumas and similar scars we carry with us. Now I'm more like Kinger and Gangle, perhaps a mix of them.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 9

Yeah that's mine (therian all the way)

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 8

Describe your gender without downloading any new pictures

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 8

Glitch and Goose deserve this. It's fucking amazing!

William Dafoe doing the Absolute Cinema pose (raising both open hands in the air) with the text "Absolute Cinema" at the bottom.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Jun 5

Illustration of Gooseworx's sona tearing up and standing in the middle of hands making a heart symbol with text saying "Love for Gooseworx, Thank you for everything" made by @pema.illustrate

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· May 21

When you've been turned into a fox but you still have some phone business to do

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· May 1

addendum to that 2/2

This text was a result of anxiety, stress and paranoia building up from an upcoming and very important appointment I have next week and the (yet again) rekindling of my special interest of photography and yearning to own a dedicated camera to be able to capture moments I find important. I was not really present when I wrote it, kinda like dissociating from the stress, my hands typing on their own without thinking if it makes any sense.

I do really wish to leave this life, this existence to enter a new dimension where souls are wandering on this planet with an unexplainable task they have to follow, to capture moments of peoples lives, places of importance and how they looked like at that time, objects or beings that are important to someone, etc. I would not have any connections to the living world anymore, no one that remembers me, thinks about me, just no ties to me. A soul that have lived a dark, sad and meaningless life, that couldn't bring any joy or meaning to someone they care but instead brought pain and suffering, only brought other people down and had a negative impact to the lives it once knew. Even tho it made many mistakes, it still wants to try to make a positive impact the only way it knows how, helping other beings not to forget and cherish the moments they have with others. Everything will end one day, maybe tomorrow or until the end of someone's life, and instead fearing about an end to something you love, cherish the moments and memories you have made with them and hold close to them. A soul like mine wants to help with that, capturing those moments with a camera, freezing time to hold them forever, to never forget them so they don't have to fear about forgetting them. I wanna hold them, preserve them until the end.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· May 1

Repost bc this is easier to read imo 1/2

I genuinely want to be a ghost

Something in the past but dwells in the present in a never ending journey of existence with no future or purpose, just wandering through the world and observe time and space with no connection to any world, thing or being.

Not existing in any layer but between, stuck, doomed to exist in purgatory, to document the things I see, the humans and animals I follow in time immemorial, capturing moments in peoples lives with a click of a machine that freezes time forever at my own will, to store it, to preserve it, to be remembered again, not loosing it to the void, an endless stream of moments worth of something, emotions, connections, loss, change, but fades away bc of time which is change as well, something to be replaced with something new, getting lost into a space of what has been, never being able to come back to those that find importance to them.

Being tasked with preservation of things that will go away, missed by so many beings but unable to hold it for dear life due to nature, is something I find solitude, purpose, peace, connection, happiness, acceptance within it. Something I haven't experienced with my mortal life.

Being seen can be a burden for something like myself, a sense of danger, of overwhelming fear, of shame, of loneliness. Oh how much I wish to accept the never ending task of preserving the memories we lost, the people we lost, the companions we lost, the emotions we lost. A task only for those that know what loss means and how important it is to cherish every aspect of those lost in time and space.

I wish to get the invitation, the chance to take the role of holding the moments of all and protect them until the end of time, until existence itself cease to exist.

🌌

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Apr 29

My YouTube comment under a photography video about what makes a photographer when everyone is taking pictures

Capturing a moment of time is what fascinates me about photography since I first noticed photography as a thing that exists. A camera that can document a moment of everything (my life, your life, intimacy, sadness, important events, places etc.) is what I love about photography. The progress of time is fast and wild. A lot can happen in someone's life, either big and important events and changes or small and seemingly trivial moments, and that can happen in rapid succession so it is bound to happen that we forget those moments in our life, regardless how big or small they are. A camera is able to hold this moment for you, with all the memories and emotions it carries, to come back and look at it once again and get transported back to this moment and sort of relive it again.
This is what photography is all about. You can practice the art and skill of photography but documenting a moment of time is the most important thing. Every photo I take is with the intention to capture something I find important. Keeping every memory and emotion in tact, frozen in time, to not let it be forgotten in a river of life's moments.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Apr 18

My postal office sells witcher post stamps and they actually look cool

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Apr 7

NO FEDPOSTING

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Apr 6

It's the second from last row in the middle. That's basically how I write it but not so beautiful like this. I only know that this is how French people write. Even the rest of the chart is basically how I write small letters except for the p, q, x and z.

vivi ΘΔ 🏳️‍⚧️@vivwoof· Mar 29

TW: mental episode