tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛

@tovesaiko

Asian drama enjoyer, enemies to lovers afficionado, chaos gremlin extraordinaire. #Reylo #Oshamir #Rujinu I write fics! 👇

131 Following228 Followers1,410 Posts

Bluesky

Is this your profile?Claim it and tovesaiko.dirty.social is yours.Claim profile

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· 7d

I had to share Lucifer serving as a bookstand too 😂

A photo of a black e-reader with "The Shattered Tempest" cover on display in black and white, propped against a tabby cat. Both the e-reader and the cat are lying on a yellow pouffe.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· 7d

Crisis averted, I'm in 😎 I've decided that sleep is for the weak and I'm not all that perky in the mornings even when I go to sleep early so who cares about me becoming a zombie!

A photo of a tabby cat sitting on a yellow pouffe next to a black e-reader with "The Shattered Tempest" cover in black and white displayed.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· 7d

🎶Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? 🎶 I would like to thank @theagwrites.bsky.social, her publishers, the Academy, my mum, and my cat. I'm now taking bets on whether I'll go to sleep as I should or download this immediately and wake up a zombie tomorrow 😅

A screen shot of an email from Netgalley with the subject "Your approved request to view This Shattered Tempest (Deluxe Limited Edition) from Avon and Harper Voyager". The screen shot i in dark mode with a pink folder tag.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· 8d

I accidentally started writing down ideas for an original story. I had no plans of writing an original story until a few hours ago. Anyway, I gave my FMC a divine lineage, then made that god/goddess an absolute failure and an embarrassment to all of godhood to balance it out 🤷

White text on black background:
"At some point we learn that they are in fact descendants of the Divine, but the god/goddess in question was the runt of the litter, the most cringe of the bunch. The other gods thought they were too pathetic to fuck so they had to try their luck with mortals, which the Divine consider basically bestiality."

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· 10d

I'm reading Midnight Cardio to remember what it was about and hopefully finally write chapter 3 and free Osha from her months-long cliffhanger 😅 I can't believe I wrote this before catching print became a thing 😂😂😂

White text on grey background:
Oh God, she's been quiet all this time. Think of something, Osha, quick. Before he realises you've been ogling him from the waist down and trying to calculate the maximum volume the crotch of his trousers allows for based on the length of the zipper and the angle at which it sits compared to the waistline.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Jul 7

Please know that while I'm listening to all the kinky sex and Aly and Josh planning Bradley's murder I'm doing this cute colouring page 😂

A photo of a colouring page featuring a woman drying her dog's hair in a bathroom half filled with a palette of green, yellow, and orange. The colouring book is lying on a wooden table, a case with markers can be partially seen at the top of the photo

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Mar 20

Wrote almost 500 words today, it's a spring equinox miracle! #oshamir

Text in white serif font on black background:
"Do you need a ride?"
She should say no. She should be strong and independent. Present a dignified image of someone who would never ever masturbate to fantasies of their doctor while hooked up to a heart rate monitor. Someone who isn't ridiculously eager to climb into this man's car and spend just a little more time with him before he leaves her life for good and she's left to cringe at her idiocy whenever she remembers the whole thing in the middle of the night for the next two years.
She should say no, but she likes her ass way too much to let it freeze off.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Jan 29

My spoiler-free review of @awayintheshire.bsky.social 's #ThisBladeofOurs ARC 👇 TL:DR: I'm obsessed with it. The book will be out this summer, preorder links here: www.shaliniwrites.com/tboo#order

Dark, textured backgroung with a bulleted list in a white serif font, with the UK cover of This Blade of Ours cover in the top left corner. The bullets in the list are substituted with dagger emojis.
The text reads:

This Blade of Ours has it all:

- Various shades of antagonists, from shameless and unrepentant in their villainy, to ones you can't help but pity.

- Cunning protagonists who, nevertheless, get things wrong because they're still flawed humans.

- Anek, the best, sassiest, most relatable neutralis this side of the Kaycakh Mountains, continuing to shine as my favourite side character.

- A woman craving power to ensure security for herself and the people who are being failed by the existing system, and the man who would give her all his power or burn it all for her if she asked but supports her handling things the way she sees fit.

- Kadra's slutty, slutty robes “accidentally” falling off his shoulder in a bid to influence Sarai's decisions.

White text in front of a dark, textured background:
This Blade of Ours is a wonderful sequel to This Monster of Mine, one of my all-time favourite books. Both are written in a way that inspires you to create something yourself, which I believe is the best way for a piece of art to affect its audience.

In the sequel, Sarai and Kadra find themselves facing the consequences of their triumph over the antagonist of the previous book, trying to work within a system they broke, and solving a new case — one that hints at a threat to all of Ur Dinyé.

Dealing with greedy Guilds, religious zealots, and the dubious joys of being in the centre of public ttention while trying to keep a crumbling empire and its people safe from destruction is no small feat.

This sequel is everything I could've wished for, balancing between compelling political intrigue, a revenge plot years in the making, and the challenges of Sarai and Kadra's relationship. It made me wish I could cancel all my plans and binge-read it in one sitting.

White text in front of a dark, textured background:
It highlights how it's not enough to gain power, you have to find a way to keep it, which may be difficult without compromising your ideals. Between Sarai, Kadra, Cassandane and Harion we are presented with vastly different ideas on how to be a good, effective politician and it's fascinating to see them implemented to varying degree of success.

On a personal level for Sarai and Kadra, the story delves into what it means to find comfort and love with someone deeply scarred, both physically and psychologically.

Neither of them are magically free from trauma and pain just because they fell in love with each other. They both have their pasts and the ghosts that still haunt them. This is particularly emphasised in Kadra's POV chapters which allow us a glimpse into what has made him the force of nature we know.

If you love This Monster of Mine you’re going to love This Blade of Ours just as much.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Jan 26

It's super late but I'm so happy to be a part of Shalini's street team for #ThisBladeofOurs 🔪 It's the sequel to one of my all-time favourite stories, #ThisMonsterofMine🖤️ If you haven't read that, do yourself a favour and run to read it rn🏃 If you have, get ready to lose your mind over TBOO🫠

Dark-red background with white lightning. The text at the top of the graphic reads: STREET TEAM MEMBER" in a white serif font.
The UK cover of This Blade of Ours is placed under the text. The cover features a gold-hilted dagger covered with blood-red bugs, in front of the same dark-red and lightning background.
The cover includes the tagline "A reckoning is coming" at the top, the title "This Blade of Ours" in ornate gold lettering, and "Shalini Abeysekara" on the bottom.
The text under the cover says "OUT JULY 2026" in the same white serif font as all earlier text except for the book title.

White text on the same dark-red and lightning background as the previous picture:
THIS BLADE OF OURS

Their love was their salvation. It could be their ruin.
Sarai believed the worst was behind her. However, months after exposing the government’s corruption in what has now been deemed “the Great Unravelling,” she faces scorn from citizens who preferred her and Kadra as the underdogs than victors. Worse, eerie omens rock the country: from a deadly plague outbreak to a sweeping madness that leave the afflicted ranting of an approaching reckoning. Accused of angering the gods, Sarai returns to the only place that can clear her name: Ur Dinyé’s frozen north. But among the secrets buried in its ice are Kadra’s.

Cursed with frightening, new abilities, Kadra struggles to protect Sarai against a land at odds with itself. When historical tensions worsen between the north and the south, a powerful religious order seizes control in the chaos, led by a man whose very voice can kill—Noceo bu Kader. Trapped between love and a crumbling country, Sarai and Kadra must outwit a power with roots as deep in fear as in cruelty. But the gods are always watching, and Sarai and Kadra may not escape a second time.

The heart-pounding conclusion to This Monster of Mine, This Blade of Ours is a sweeping blend of cosmic horror, mystery, and achingly tender romance.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Jan 13

Day 3 is a bold attempt at drawing #ConnorStorrie. I cheated a bit with this one and spent some more time on it, but I regret nothing because he actually kinda looks like himself???? There are still some things that are off but even my perfectionist ass can tell we're going in the right direction 🎉

A sketch of Connor Storrie in a dark turtleneck, portrayed in 3/4 view from the neck up

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Jan 13

Days 1 and 2:

Messy sketch of a plus size woman with dark hair sitting on a stool. She's wearing underwear and holding a veru roughly sketched bouquet of flowers. There are some additional notes next to the sketch saying "Head a bit small compared to body?", "Drawing chins from [a] lower perspective is scary", and "I love belly rolls"

A messy sketch of a plump dark haired woman wearing a frilly dress. Her left hand touches her chest right below a necklace and there are roses in her hair and in front of her décolletage.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Dec 30

#NiceToNotMeetYou episode 15 spoilers Hyeon Jun is so moved by the fact that Jeong Sin's wallpaper is a photo of him as Kang Pil Gu 🥺🥺🥺 #NiceToNotMeetYouSpoilers

Lee Jung Jae as Im Hyeon Jun, all teary eyed as he looks off-screen, holding spare clothes to his chest.

Hyeon Jun hugging his spare clothes like it's a teddy bear, looking like a smitten kitten.

Hyeon Jun bending down, on the verge of tears like the fool in love that he is.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Dec 28

Midnight Cardio Explicit, ch 2/3 An #Oshamir doctor/patient fic set before Christmas 🎄 Includes sexy doctors, mocking Christmas tree lights, and crispy winter air perfect for long walks with your partner (if you had a partner, that is, instead of thirsting after your cardiologist). #SelfPromoSunday

The title "Midnight Cardio" in a yellow-pink gradient with "by Tovesaiko" in white underneath in frony of a white on black ECG graph background.

A snippet from the fic in white letters on a dark burgundy background:
"She's bent down, huffing and puffing like an old man dying of lung disease as she attempts to fish out her medical records from her backpack, when she hears a voice behind her.
"Ms Aniseya?"
The voice doesn't sound like an older man's voice. It's deep and strong, and flows over her like a wall of sound, forcing her to suppress a shiver. She wiggles her toes instead in her heavy work boots because God fucking damn it.
Nice, Osha, she chides herself. Has it really been that long since you got laid that you'd get horny just at the sound of someone's voice?
In her defence, it has been that long. And this particular someone's voice? It sounds like he should be an audio erotica narrator, not a doctor.
He could play a doctor in an audio erotica. Isn't medical play a whole kink? He'd make so much money if he tried it.
Do not, for the love of all that's holy, suggest your new cardiologist is wasting his talents and should switch careers to become an audio erotica narrator."

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Dec 27

I'm having kind of a shitty day because my mum called me and further disappointments were had, but on the flip side: Rumi and Jinu are here! They're so beautiful 🥹

Funko Pop figurines of Rumi and Jinu from Kpop Demon Hunters. They are standing on a wooden surface with a cork place mat. A yellow pouffe, a monstera plant, and a lit up christmas tree can be seen in the background.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Dec 26

And Midnight Cardio Chapter 2 of 3 is up, it's a Christmas miracle! ❤️ Our favourite messy queen Mae ❤️ The point of lovely tits ❤️ Osha's vivid imagination ❤️ How to get away with lying (badly) to your doctor

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Dec 25

Yeah ok I had different plans for tonight but gay hockey players hijacked my soul 🤷

A sparkly kindle displaying a cartoonish cover for Game Changer by Rachel Reid. The kindle is propped up on a white cat-face-shaped pillow which lies on a pink blanket with a mushroom pattern.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 8

I love her your honour 😍 Victor may be the mad inventor but she's the inventor of serving cunt 💅 #Frankenstein

Elizabeth lying on the floor in a sumptuous green gown, reading. She is stately and clearly above the mundane things like manners of mere mortals.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 8

The homoeroticism is off the charts, as it should be 😌 #Frankenstein

Victor Frankenstein reaching lovingly for the Creature, bathed in the golden light of dawn.

Victor looking at the Creature with loge and awe clear in his eyes. Wish someone would look like this at me ngl.

Victor being embraced by the Creature. Good for them!!

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 8

Not with this as my Kindle screensaver 😂

Photo of a black Kindle on a light-pink background. The Kindle has a custom screen-saver with the word "smut" written in black gothic lettering with a black rococo-ish frame around it. The background of the screensaver is white.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 8

Yes, his mum died, I'm very sad, but also I'm excited that this is the Wilton House room they used for Pemberley interior in P&P 2005 and for Donwell Abbey interior in Emma. 2020 ☝️🤓 #Frankenstein #FrankensteinSpoilers

Photo of a tv screen with the scene of young Viktor throwing himself against the couch in despair in the Wilton House room.

A still from Pride and Prejudice 2005 with Georgiana playing the piano and Darcy standing beside it in the same room.

Still from Emma. 2020 with Mr Knightley having an existential crisis of the horny, I mean pining, kind in the same room.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 7

Shalini Abeysekara's insta story coming for my throat again. Lee Pace joining the club of sexy fantasy series men who serve as inspiration for Kadra??? These books really are specifically for me 🫠 #ThisMonsterOfMine #ThisBladeOfOurs #ShaliniAbeysekara

Screen shot from a @shalini.writes (Shalini Abeysekara) instagram story showing a still from an edit by user leepaceismyworld of Lee Pace as Brother Day in the tv series Foundation. He is wearing a loose dark blue kimono and looking to his left. The caption says "I ran out of Ben Barnes material when writing book 2 and Lee Pace came in CLUTCH"

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 2

BEWARE SPOILERS!! #YourMonster #YourMonsterSpoilers 2/2

showstopper, the blood on her clothes, the broken ruler, the way we're not privy to the audience's reaction until the very end.
• The creators truly understood that monster/villain romance is about integrating your own shadow and emerging from your trauma a fully realised person. Also that sometimes women deserve a little violent murder and to sing their triumph out in the spotlight.
• I love the pacing, the story crescendoes until it ends with one hell of a bang. It made me feel the way I feel sitting in the audience in the theatre and my heart beats faster and faster with every song of a show until I'm left shell-shocked after the final song, feeling like I'm not the same person who sat down to watch it three or so hours earlier.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 2

I can't deal with the character limit rn so here are my favourite aspects of the movie from my notes app, with the whole text pasted into alt text! BEWARE SPOILERS!!! #YourMonster #YourMonsterSpoilers 1/2

• Laura's emotional journey from the abandoned woman accepting everything life and a shitty guy throw her way to finally letting her rage out and escalating to that fabulous final number?
• The eventual Jackie & Laura alliance!!! The way the movie plays with our expectations to cast the pretty blonde bombshell as the interloper stealing Laura's career and her ex only to reveal she had no idea about anything and actually felt uncomfortable with Jacob's behaviour was perfect. And the fact that she so is ready to scheme with Laura and give her back the spotlight so he can get what he deserves is heart-warming.
• This movie said "we support women's rights but more importantly we support women's wrongs" with its whole chest

and I'm here for that.
• The focus on sexuality and how it can intersect with rage and how confusing it can be to be a woman/AFAB forced to navigate the society's expectations for how you're supposed to behave. The contraditions of being told to fight for yourself so people don't call you a doormat but not hard enough lest people call you a bitch.
• The reveal of Jacob and Maizie's betrayal and how the aftermath was filmed and scored is chef's kiss.
• The cool "feminist" dude making it big thanks to the uncredited work of a woman as so many "supportive" men have before? Bringing us back to all the brilliant women who "assisted" the great thinkers of our civilisation and sometimes did most of the work but never got the credit they deserved.

• The movie establishing right off the bat that Jacob abandoned Laura in the worst time of her life because he couldn't support her for a year, to later underscore that what he couldn't do for a year she did for him for five?!
• We already hate him AND THEN we find out he and Maizie have been sleeping together even before he broke up with Laura in a double betrayal? Leavung her to reckon with the fact that all this time she had neither a loyal partner nor a trusted friend?
• AND THEN!! He cut Laura out of the musical SHE HELPED DEVELOP, cast an actress that doesn't seem to have a musical theathre background but rather a TV career but she's generating a lot of buzz right now.
• Jacob off-handedly mentioning Maizie got a support role despite not

auditioning "because she's making a name for herself", then Laura wondering if sleeping with him is the prerequisite to get a role and missing by assuming it's Jackie but finally the movie reveals actually it's been Maizie? Implying Laura was right about the casting criteria just wrong about the target without spelling it out for us??
• And I'm not even touching on how well crafter the monster's character and his and Laura's romance is. The beast with a thorn in its paw, the monstrous part of Laura smarting from being shut away (in the closet of all places!!!). Laura learning to appreciate the Monster and, by extension, the ugly, angry parts of herself.
• The bloody culmination being cut in such a way we discover what exactly happened as Laura sings the

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Nov 1

Eughblergh

Screen shot of search results with a "Writerless AI Free Humanizer" sponsored result above Ellipsus, an online word processor.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Oct 31

Oh and here's the door

Photo of an old-ish wooden door with a paper pumpkin garland hung across. The pumpkins have faces drawn on using marker. The door number is hidden by a ghost emoji cause you never know who's lurking.

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Oct 31

Then you can draw faces on the figures with a marker or leave as is 😊

The paper ghost garland with faces drawn on: classical boo face, a face with an animal snout, a frustrated face and finally a face that's about to rizz you up

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Oct 31

Thanks! You cut paper into strips, fold it into a harmonica (I figured out the width of each piece by folding in half and half etc until I liked the width). Draw half a shape with it's center on the fold and cut it out. Repeat until you have enough for a garland or run out of paper 😂

Two strips of white paper on a wooden surface, another strip of paper is folded into a harmonica.

One strip of unfolded paper, one strip folded into halves repeatedly and one folded into a harmonica

A notebook page with a trial ghost shape drawn on it, next to the page there's the harmonica folded paper with the same shape drawn along the fold

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Oct 31

Tov's last minute arts and crafts corner 😂

tov is (kinda) back from the dead 🧛@tovesaiko· Oct 26

I'm taking singing lessons & properly learning how to read sheet music for the 1st time in my life, despite singing in a choir as a kid. Except I learn best by writing everything by hand so now I'm also (re)learning how to write the notes and it's taking me back to learning how to write in general😂