Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)

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Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· 19d

#RealityCheck #Accountability #SelfReflection The Truth About Self-Destructive Behavior

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· 19d

BIG SUGARPLUMS!! OH SPEAKING OF— Yo I coulda sworn I saw lil fella pop up on the WEBTOON YouTube channel posts—? Look at that!

WEBTOON post of a “I’ve got two wolves in me” showing two Black folks, hugging each other joyfully, with sunflowers and lily of the valley on the opposing corners of the frame, with a horse split between a red hot flaming hindquarters and blue flame front quarters.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Jun 9

#Pacerfit is another #scam app. So to those desperate to earn cash for a bit of #food or something small, don’t bother. I gave it a week. Only cashed out 0.60 cents of Amazon gift cards. Earned $43.66 in cash just to be stuck at 49 fragments to prevent me from cashing out. #urgent $105 -> $148.66

A smartphone screen showing a gamified step‑tracking app. The display lists a balance of 43,664 points, daily progress at 9 of 3,000 steps, and metrics for calories, distance, and duration. A circular progress ring surrounds a green shoe icon. Buttons and icons for prizes, ads, and step‑to‑reward conversion appear around the center. A banner at the bottom promotes watching ads to withdraw money.”

A mobile app interface with a large golden egg centered on a pastel cloud background. A small hammer icon sits above it, and a red ‘Crack It’ button below shows zero hammers available. A banner at the top lists a total of 49. A prompt offers one hammer for watching two videos. At the bottom, three prize options appear: a Starbucks gift card, a Chanel lipstick, and a Google Play gift card.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· May 20

Hey, so. I’ve restructured this thread to only focus on Latin. Those who shared this thread be aware, for potency…to use this one. …I needed to do this thread justice. Not only for my past efforts, but this will not be the first or last time I redraw or redo something. For #SWers.

A watermarked sigil to ensure that it was made by CJOAT, and made by humans not AI; that has the intent, “Omnis latens, Sal Daddy, timewaster, lookie-loo, et Splenda Pater qui gratis contentus ab operariis sexus petit, erectiones suas per annum amittit.”

In English, “Every lurker, Salt Daddy, timewaster, lookie-loo, and Splenda Daddy that asks for free content from sex workers loses their erections for a year.” As this was inspired by @permanentalien.blacksky.app and @qatapultnsfw.bsky.social

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· May 18

Food has been secured, thank you. It’s 82° in this house 95°F with 88% humidity today, A/C is shot, and we need fans…desperately… #urgentneeds #helpfolkslive2026 #helpsky #fundsky #emergencyfund 🚨💸 throne.com/cjoat/item/0... throne.com/cjoat/item/D... #HeatWave #SummerStruggles #HeatRelief

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· May 5

#selfpromo for https://shop.cjoatbysamwise.com ; https://www.miiriya.com/store/cjoat Sharing my no tolerance view on Child predators using @peachkka’s song “Fertilizer” (highly recommend), and showing a cardinal arriving the day after #beltane

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 22

with the violent rage but exhaustion too much to carry it out by the end. It’s structured more so for me to show my turmoil as of this astrological period. This is a deep scar, I woke up today with the song in my head #LifeForALife #BreakingFree #FamilyTies #MovingOn #PersonalGrowth #FreshStart

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 22

This is…more so the raw. It’s structured this way against conventional poem writing because I wanted people to experience this as I do, waking to Papaoutai playing in the mind, letting the emotions and core pain ebb boil and flow

Fragmented lines describing the father’s face fading “into white… Blurry and horned,” noting that apologies are acknowledged by others but not him, and calling the speaker a “cash cow or burden.” The surreal image of a face dissolving into whiteness captures emotional erasure and the speaker’s sense of being reduced to utility rather than personhood.

Lines expressing a wish the father had not attended graduation so absence would be simpler, a wish that child support had extended to the speaker, and an unfinished line about the father marrying.

These practical grievances—missed milestones and withheld support—anchor the poem’s emotional claims in concrete losses that compound the speaker’s abandonment.

Short closing lines that repeat the idea of an unfillable void, the speaker’s optimism exposed as naïveté, and the final whispered lines “A life… For a life.” ending with silence.

The echoing, elliptical ending leaves the reader in the same exhausted space as the speaker—not triumphant but resolute—suggesting that survival requires letting go even when the wound remains.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 22

Through this raw and honest reflection, I express the complicated love I still hold for him while ultimately deciding to let go and break free from the cycle of seeking his validation and affection. #FamilyTrauma #DaughterStory #UnspokenPain #DaddyIssues #Catharsis #TruthTelling #LettersToMyFather

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 22

I share my deeply personal journey of confronting the painful absence and emotional neglect of my father. I talk about the void he left in my life, the favoritism shown to his other children, and the repeated rejection I've experienced.

A smartphone note titled Papaoutai, dated April 22, 2026, 12:28 pm, with a subtitle crediting Song Inspiration: Papaoutai by Stromae and author Prehn Moonwhisper; white text on a black background shows the poem’s opening lines asking where the father is and naming the void he leaves.

The page reads like the first, stunned moment of recognition—an address to an absent father that frames the poem’s central wound and the speaker’s refusal to inherit that emptiness.

White text on black showing lines about an unfillable void and the speaker’s compulsion to seek the father’s presence, noting being overlooked except when the father is “forced to interact,” and a blunt claim that the father “never loved me.”

These lines shift from yearning to accusation, exposing how neglect becomes transactional and how love is experienced as conditional and commodified.

A continuation in the same note app voice listing “A father, a dad, a ‘Papi’,” the speaker’s snubbed attempts at recognition, a prayer to the family’s God, and sardonic images like “rollerskates and new wives,” followed by a sexualized indictment about the father “cashing checks.”

The stanza mixes religious, domestic, and sexual imagery to show how family structures and performative masculinity protect the father while erasing the speaker, turning personal grievance into social critique.

Short lines where the speaker corrects themselves from “daughter” to “child,” confesses persistent love despite being haunted, signs the name Marlowe Fabio Williams, and asks to be seen and told “I’m proud of my baby girl” without contempt.

The correction of identity and the plea for a simple affirmation reveal the speaker’s deep need for recognition and the pain of being denied a tender, human response.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 22

I woke to the song Papaoutai by Stromae playing again in my head and it brought with it a torrent of raw writing to address this deep scar. #FatherlessChild #AbandonmentTrauma #PaternalAbsence #HeartfeltConfession #FamilyPain #SearchingForLove #UnheardVoices #EmotionalJourney #DaddyIssues

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 13

I am ecstatic at my kitchen and back screen door cleansing results, I just—the stains on the walls, the cabinets, the fridge and microwave, I felt literal joy that even when common area inspections came and immediately went “oo smells good” AAA *stims* #Blackjoy #Cleaning #kitchen #backdoor #view

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 13

I am—AAA I am happy with a cleaned mirror I did myself that smells like lemons. 🍋 🪞 AAA it just scratches a brain in the right place for foot thumps. #lemonjuice #mirror #smallvictories #Blackjoy #disabled

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 9

April 2, 2025 - Fae Garden vs. HOA employed Landscapers #FaeGarden #Wildlife #GardenIntruders #Fae #OutdoorLife throne.com/cjoat/wishlist

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 8

I got high for the first time~~ only 3 puffs! It feels really good. #HighLife #FriendsWhoGetHighTogether #GoodVibes #AnxietyRelief #SpliffDimension #CelebrationMode #FeelingGood #FriendGroup #LivingBestLife #GigglesAndGood Times

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Apr 5

*hands up* Let’s not be too hasty! *slides over the goods* /ref

A reference sheet for an anthropomorphic African elephant with Elmo red 3c curly hair, from the front, side, and back view which reviews the hair braided down to the hips. This element wears bright Green glasses, a binder with yellow stitching, and a blue textile wrap skirt.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Mar 23

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Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Mar 22

Just to flex a little, I’m proud of myself for how I responded here. Truly. Like balance went down and all you could do was throw the mediated maintenance issue thing at me. Mm. #Fightback #CorruptNonprofit #Landlord #HOA It’s no longer emotional reactions, it’s purely transactional responses.

Aaron Fenster, COO of Housing Unlimited (corrupt nonprofit HOA), sent an email copying a partner of HUI (Housing Unlimited, Inc.) saying, “Hi Prehn,
During the mediation with
office of
Landlord and Tenant Affairs, I explained that HUI was unable to reimburse you for the payments described below. Besides the oven racks, you've developed a pattern of failing to report maintenance issues and then you use self-help and ask for reimbursement. HUI relies on tenants to report maintenance issues so our maintenance team can respond accordingly. It is my understanding that you purchased the wrong size oven racks.
Ultimately, HUI purchased the correct size oven racks. On account of that, you will not be reimbursed.
I've attached an updated ledger for your records. This shows rent forgiveness in the months of January and February reflected on the ledger on 3/11/26.
If there are any outstanding matters that you would like to discuss please let me know.”

Aaron Fenster signs off with his Job title, COO; and where he works, Housing Unlimited, Inc; as well as a link and socials and his qualifying feature at the Catalogue for Philanthropy of 2019-2020

Prehn replies to Aaron’s email, CC’ing the same Cornerstone partner Aaron did, saying in what feels like a colder, emotionless professional shift, “Dear Aaron,
I would like to address the claims regarding a "pattern of failing to report maintenance issues" and the denial of reimbursement.
There are several crucial points to consider:
1. Policy Clarification: The written-only policy was established to minimize misunderstandings. At its inception, there was no clarification that maintenance issues were excluded from this protocol. If this policy did not apply to maintenance, it should have been specified in our agreement.
2. Reporting History: I have consistently followed the written-only protocol. My email records with you and the previous property manager, Tiffany Lamin, from January 2025 onward, show multiple reports regarding mold, the ceiling, flooring, and the phone. These issues were often ignored or deprioritized. Self-help only occurred after HUl failed to respond to these written reports for months.
Regarding the oven racks, HUI replaced only one rack. I request either the replacement of the second rack or reimbursement for half the cost of the racks I purchased.
3. Response Delays: The delays in reporting were often a direct result of HUl's own delayed responses. Despite reports from myself, Said, and Melissa, issues took months to resolve. We were told to be understanding of HUl being short-staffed; however, that understanding must be mutual.” More continued in the next screenshot.

Prehn’s email continues with incredible knife working language, “The argument that I failed to report issues is not supported by our correspondence.
Regarding the updated ledger, 1 appreciate the rent forgiveness for January and February. However, your response does not address the November and December rent mentioned in the original court filing. Since I pay rent at the end of each month for the following month when my SSI is issued, I would like to know if HUl is processing these payments as late.
I look forward to your reply.” With Prehn signing off appropriately.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Mar 22

Alrighty, I’ve been thinking about how I was going to express this #update for a couple of days now. #Blacksky As mentioned in the thread I wrote retreated, I was stolen from a single customer, who used PayPal to chargeback ~$800 in SW DLC. He came back and disputed the rest, including those of

A screenshot of CJOAT’s transaction history, starting from bottom up, it reveals one malicious customer using PayPal to steal almost $2,000 for DLC Downloads months after purchasing. One order has come in to chip away at the -$1,919.78 balance, but it only took $1.57 off. An insurmountable obstacle for a disabled Black Queer art shop owner relying this as their basic income to get through the month.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 23

This was clear financial cost, and I’m barely on social media nowadays anyway. Keeping my small business up is costing me more and more and it’s only because of how much I put into it that… creating…feels like such a toll.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 14

I’m bumping for shop visibility for mah frienddddd, Boulderdashh. dashs-shop.fourthwall.com

Website screenshot of a product list called Readings and Workings from Dash’s Shop. Three tarot services are shown in vertical cards: 1 Card Tarot priced at $5 with a one-line summary, 3 Card Tarot priced at $15 with a paragraph about energy flow and conflict, and 5 Card Tarot priced at $25 with a similar description; each listing includes a thumbnail photo of the spread and notes that readings include a picture of the spread and an explanatory paragraph but not specific names, places, or dates.

Webpage screenshot titled Latest Products displaying four rectangular product tiles on a dark blue background. Top left is Decisive Decisions Daily Magnet $7 with a colorful rectangular magnet image; top right is Decision Notebook $21 showing a black notebook with the phrase Decisive Decisions Daily and a small leaf graphic; bottom left is 1 Card Tarot $5 featuring a single tarot card labeled The High Priestess with a white tiger, a cosmic sphere, and a crescent moon; bottom right is 3 Card Tarot $15 showing three tarot cards laid out on a gold background including a cups card with roses, a red-bordered geometric card, and a card with five vertical rods.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 12

🛑HALT🛑 🚨This is a mandatory booty inspection. 🚨 Quote with your booty or put it in the comments to continue scrolling.

A light skin Black femme presenting figure, taking a photo of themselves from the back, their booty and side boob in view of landscape scale.

Floating above their hand is a sigil that means, “Abundance spirals out from me, as I have my needs fulfilled all my people also do, with no further effort of my own.”

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 11

I love youuuuuuuuuuuu

Prehn holds back tears while smiling and happy sappy looking at the Camera

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 11

Me on birthday night was so tired and just got called Unc, and honestly I’m still happy to hit that milestone. Cuz it was hilarious to me.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 11

Oooo I’m feeling myself. Ooo I’m fine. I never realized it. This feels so good. #FeelingGood #SelfLove It’s like seeing what others see for a bit.

A lightskin Black person wearing glasses and a black durag reclines on a light couch with one arm behind their head. They wear a brightly colored Rugrats‑themed onesie and several crystal beaded bracelets. The background is softly lit and uncluttered.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 9

bsky.app/profile/cjoa... Like how am I supposed to respect you…if you don’t respect yourself????????

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 7

If you see this, post a picture of you in glasses.

A person in glasses and a white jacket holds a hand‑rolled tea blunt to their mouth. Their fingers are stained, and several colorful pins decorate the jacket. Behind them is a wooden fence, green foliage, and part of a house.

A person with short curly hair and blue‑framed glasses stands in a tiled bathroom, making a skeptical, pursed‑lip expression. A mounted white bottle is visible on the wall behind them.

A person wearing glasses holds a glass mug of brown liquid near their face. A small Furret toy with large eyes rests on their shoulder. A white wall and window blinds sit in the background.

A person wearing glasses and a blue patterned muu muu smiles while pointing to their teeth with their right index finger. They wear a beaded bracelet in green, yellow, and black and a red smartwatch. A window with closed blinds and a white door sit behind them.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 2

damages. Total Settlement Amount: $2,000.00... If not paid, I will immediately proceed with a lawsuit... and file a formal wire fraud complaint..." And here is the raw, human truth behind that legal letter. This is the personal cost. (2/2)

So we're stealing from Black creators during Black History Month, huh?
Whoever bought $800+ of my spicy DLC, downloaded it, then filed a fraudulent chargeback saying it "wasn't you"...
You didn't just steal my art.
You stole my earnings.
You stole my labor.
And the stress from this has actively worsened my chronic illness.
The absolute irony that you're a fellow artist with a gorgeous portfolio? A damn shame.
This is a formal warning to other creators. This person committed digital theft and wire fraud.
They used PayPal's system to steal non-refundable, downloaded content.
I have all the evidence.
They have until Monday to make this right.
Or I will pursue this through every legal and public channel available.
Protect your art. Track your downloads. And know that some people hide thieves behind beautiful masks.
#DigitalArtTheft #BlackCreators ##PayPalDispute#D#DigitalShopliftingC hargebackFraud
This is not to attack the person who did so, / @Jayarts, this is a WARNING only. This isn't a witch hunt or to run someone off the internet, this is to take accountability and stay transparent on what's going on, nothing else.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 2

wire fraud reports, and public exposure. I have all the evidence. This is happening. #WireFraud Here is a key excerpt from that demand letter. This is the professional, legal framework I am using. (1/2) "Given the fraudulent nature of this act... I demand an additional $1,175.37 in compensatory

Given the circumstances, 1am offering a resolution before pursuing formal action. You have two options:
1. Voluntary Settlement: Repay the original sum of $794.63, plus the $30.00 in PayPal dispute fees I incurred, for a subtotal of $824.63. Given the fraudulent nature of this act, the financial instability it caused, and the significant emotional distress and exacerbation of my health conditions that resulted from your actions, I demand an additional $1,175.37 in compensatory damages.
Total Settlement Amount: $2,000.00.
Payment must be made in a sinale, non-reversible transaction to through Maryland ABLE at
or
This full amount must be received by Monday, February 9, 2026, Eastern Standard Time.
2. Legal Action: If the settlement is not paid in full by the deadline, I will immediately proceed with a lawsuit against you. The claim will seek the original amount, all associated fees, and significantly higher damages for fraud, theft of intellectual property, and the intentional infliction of emotional distress. I will also file a formal wire fraud complaint with the relevant authorities. Furthermore, I will publish a detailed public account of this fraud-including your name, the transaction evidence, and the ruling-across my professional networks and social platforms to warn other creators.

Mx. P (they/he/we/&/xe/xir)@cjoat· Feb 2

On Sept 21, a customer purchased $794.63 in digital, non-refundable content (art/DLC) from my shop. In Nov, they filed a chargeback with PayPal, claiming it was an "unauthorized transaction." PayPal ruled in their favor, despite my evidence of successful delivery & download. #PayPalHorrorStory