helleano)))r

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helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jun 13

lost within the citrine effervescence of a moment imperfect

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jan 1

though i am sure a good number of you would have this in your inboxes, i wanted to bring my farewell to 2025 post from bandcamp over here as well. thank you all for being with me for another year, i'm very much excited for what's still to come 💗

a screenshot of a bandcamp post by our dear friend, the medic (hey, that's me!) posted a short time ago. it reads as follows:

with 2025 just about in the rearview, i wanted to take this final moment of the year to offer thanks and gratitude for bringing my music into your lives and allowing those moods and spaces to keep you company in whatever way you needed them

this year saw two releases, and the kind words given to both "to turn and remove the key" and "my heart, a palimpsest of every letter i've never written" have been greatly appreciated. i am glad to have many follow my works regardless of genre, timbre or texture. i am not sure what will be the first sounds of mine you'll hear in 2026, but i am confident that no matter what shape or form it takes my heart will still be heard true

i will, however, be bringing in the new year with a listening party for my most recent release in early january, and i hope to have you there with me. details to come as i get everything sorted

on a final note, though one that may not be terribly relevant to everyone on bandcamp, my music will be leaving all streaming services within the next couple of weeks. i had plans to drop spotify and join the many artists refusing to contribute to the nightmare they've made of the music landscape, but can also no longer justify the costs of upkeeping my releases elsewhere when it costs so much every year with no return on investment. i apologise if this will inconvenience any, but i have to be responsible enough to know when to cut losses

keep curious, let art into your heart more and more as the years tick by. to our next steps together, wherever they lead

-e

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Dec 6

a lovely review given by a friend, posted with permission! it always means so much to get a look into what my music conjures in the theatre of others' minds, what memories and emotions emerge thank you to everyone who grabbed a copy to keep and shared this slab of daydreams around yesterday 💗

a review of the album "my heart, a palimpsest of every letter i've never written" by our dear friend, the medic. it reads as follows:

though the tracklist is a simple 6 songs, each song is of varying length, providing a scrapbook story of memories. each song bleeds into the next, a thousand notes a painting for memories reformatted in a present setting. half formed thoughts become a palpable ache; the start of the album a light, airy thing, like bordering on the edge of a blissful dream in an afternoon nap, only to bleed into heavier, more melancholic tones as the dream is not purely comfort, but one of a bone deep longing.

the first two tracks are settling into that space between waking world and dreams, and by the time through the wintry monochromatic grain is through, you realize too late that this peaceful space is laid heavy with whispers from a long past. they become clearer in while the sodium lights hummed their soft radiance, the shadow of a fluorescent lit individual solidifying into focus. and then, attacked at full force in my heart, a palimpsest of every letter i've never written; not from the pain of remembering what was, but the pain of what could of been. it's the audible manifestation of "did I say the right thing" or "did I say enough." it's a panic attack swan dive into a cyclone of regrets, bitter and longing to speak things that were left unsaid.

the climax continues into sought the sedative of surrender in her arms, only to cease just under halfway through. the memories of what could have been are past, and you are awake once more. the pain of having loved is there, but it's not just pain. a surrender that things are as they are, yes, but understanding that...that's okay.

favourite track is through the wintry monochromatic grain; the low hums and grain transporting you to a deep, winter night, where the snow blankets your shoulder in a slow embrace. there's a figure there that you loved, but a face you've since forgotten. gentle, ominous at

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Dec 5

a faded macro photograph of pinkish white flowers with text overlaid atop it, which reads as follows:

palimpsest
/ˈpaləm(p)ˌsest/
noun (1) a piece of paper, parchment, tablet, or other writing surface which has had the original contents washed away to enable reuse, with traces of the former text visible (2) something or someone with many layers or aspects beneath the surface (3) feelings left unsaid, layering regrets with names, places, emotions, and memories that one carries within the heart

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jul 31

a message from "our dear friend, the medic" on the bandcamp website, which reads as follows:

to all who may be wounded, sutured, lost, or found,

as you may have heard, bandcamp friday approaches us not but 24 hours from now, on august 1st. with this, i am quite eager to announce the release of some new material, an ep titled “to turn and remove the key”, which will be available for purchase exclusively on bandcamp (or at the very least, will not be available on spotify and the like)

these pieces were written in-character as part of a story project that didn’t fully come together a couple of years ago. the composer violetta, an esteemed musician of her time, wrote these pieces during a particular time in her life and marked a shift from her more experimental and avant garde works. as she lived during a pre-technology era, each work is crafted with more classical timbres - strings, woodwinds, and the ever pleasant piano

i will provide more details with the ep’s release tomorrow. even though they are all through the perspective of a fictional person, i still feel a deeply intimate connection with each piece. as i listen to them now, giving one final round of polish, i can feel a welling brought about by the sapphic yearning and release found within

it is time for the sound of her heart to be heard by the world at last

until then, be as well as can be

-e

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jun 26

i will see the heavens split in half if it means my heart has any chance to reach you

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· May 28

a film photograph of a window in a darkened room, the faint grey wash of light from the rainy day barely casting its pained illumination over strewn notebooks and unlit lamps resting upon a desk. the world beyond the glass is blotted and smeared under a coating of rain droplets and gentle depth of field. a sense of melancholy hangs over this quiet moment

📷 - nikon n6006
🎞 - kodak gold 200

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· May 28

📻 replay whenever and wherever you may need it 📻 my artist mix for @dragonseyerecordings.com on @campradio.bsky.social - inspired by feelings of inescapable longing entwined within memories nursed by the melancholy of spring rains. let your heart speak 💗 www.mixcloud.com/camp_fr/drag...

a stylised layout for the "dragon's eye recordings mix series" radio show, for episode 29, by "our dear friend, the medic" (that's me!) nestled in between the informational borders is a drawing of the medic herself - a large blue cat woman wearing a rustic pink dress and pink short boots, playing a hollowbody electric guitar (maton bb1200jh model, for the guitar nerds)

an image containing the playlist for episode 29 of dragon's eye recordings' artist mix series by "our dear friend, the medic" (that's me!) which lists the following as the track listing for the mix:

1.) いろのみ - 雨森 (ironomi - forest rains)
2.) sawako - dream float
3.) crys cole & oren ambarchi - call myself [excerpt]
4.) fennesz - liminality
5.) marcus fischer - home
6.) junebug - too late to love you
7.) grouper - thunderstorm recorded in aljezur [excerpt]
8.) akira rabelais - iii
9.) jefre cantu-ledesma - love's refrain

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· May 18

yeah, that one came from re6 - the collector's edition in europe shipped with an ivy university sweatshirt like the one they used for this ad campaign

a photograph (not mine!) of a european collector's edition for the game resident evil 6, displaying an xbox live code card, some unique artwork, and pieces of memorabilia including an "ivy university - tall oaks" sweatshirt

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Mar 27

time for a zaireeka-style multi device listen along

a screenshot of the gmail mobile application displaying emails for three different bandcamp listening parties starting at the same time

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Feb 20

a photograph of a long branch of a tree, covered in rich red flowery buds, encased in a thick cocoon of ice. just out of focus behind it, other similarly frozen trees frost up the background

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jan 28

a screenshot from the website freesound, displaying a file titled "hell sound" with a very ominously wide waveform tapering off rapidly to silence. the description for the file reads "caution: this sound will make you die when you listen to it", and it is tagged with "fog" "creepy" "house" and "devil". if you are reading this, then i have not yet listened to the sound

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Jan 11

a photograph of a kitten fast asleep in her bed. she has curled herself around onto her back, stretching her leggys out over the boundaries of her cushioned sleeping space. her rear toesies are curled, face glowing with the bliss of rest

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Dec 31

2024 was a year of challenges and changes which reshaped my plans entirely. in the face of all, i still yet managed to release "when air collapsed within" and join the @dragonseyerecordings.com family alongside many inspirations who helped me find my path forward in the dark

a blurry, grainy, entirely out-of-focus shot of a seaside sunset. almost all detail has been suffocated out by darkness and noisy texture, save for the burnt orange of the horizon filtering through the clouds which shifts into grey and inky blue blotches before joining the void of night overhead

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Dec 18

just in today, this not-so-little workhorse from the 90s 💗 plenty of heft in the hand, but feels pretty smooth and snappy in decent condition. will have to pick up a roll to test with soon!

a photograph of a nikon n6006 35mm film camera with a nikkor 50mm f/1.8 af lens, both from 1991. it rests upon a wooden table adorned with artworks of various lighthouses. the lighting is soft and muted, giving a gorgeous understated tone to an otherwise unremarkable photograph

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 30

a photograph of an older kitten sleeping peacefully on a fluffy rug. she snoozes away quietly, the warmth of the afternoon sun highlighting an outstretched paw and most of her face while the rest of her is cloaked in the shade of the table above her

a photograph of an older kitten on a fluffy rug. she has woken up from her afternoon nap, giving a nice long stretch as she twists her body sideways to fully decompress. she has taken note of the camera and the family member who holds it, staring with silent contentment of the moment she shares

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 28

a photograph of the sky, cloaked in dreary autumnal clouds. there is an intensity within the otherwise mundane framing, with gentle clouds in the middle being crowded by dramatic and heavier storm clouds blotting out more of the waning sun

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 26

a screenshot from the twitch chat for world's first race of the latest final fantasy 14 ultimate raid by user ultros ff6, which reads "i wish i had a roommate that cared about me as much as gaia cares"

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 20

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 16

like a sparrow among the spires

helleano)))r@listeninggarden· Nov 14

one of the (many) inspirations for violetta's musical stylings, though the cover itself is a 100% original design based off of the technique utilised for the composition! en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Etudes_...